Felt happy with the newly made friends. of course, learned a lots of thing today.
Something I discovered today, when doing god's job or in front of god, we are willing to sacrifice that much. yeah. great brother(senior) of mine.
He is nice person with know bible in depth. although he is not very wealthy or what, still he wealthy in god's faith and knowledge.
Of course i respect him so much and i pray he can a step more higher in his life and keep up his work of god.
a grateful night
Tuesday, November 23, 2010
Wednesday, October 27, 2010
Monday, October 18, 2010
Friday, October 15, 2010
Hambee humble
“God opposes the proud, but gives grace to the humble [James 4:6]”
the verse i wish to hold the most.
god of high sky, his decision shall not be opposed.
for him, we are as precious as son of him and everything happen in our life, i believe, is a sign of what he try to tell, whether we are in wrong way or in right path.
Through this, I'm too overreacted to anything oppose to humble.. very much.
Is it a good thing?
to Joanne, I love you. Don't give up my dear.
Life won't be so success all the time, few year later, who know u will be a better person than anyone here.
the verse i wish to hold the most.
god of high sky, his decision shall not be opposed.
for him, we are as precious as son of him and everything happen in our life, i believe, is a sign of what he try to tell, whether we are in wrong way or in right path.
Through this, I'm too overreacted to anything oppose to humble.. very much.
Is it a good thing?
to Joanne, I love you. Don't give up my dear.
Life won't be so success all the time, few year later, who know u will be a better person than anyone here.
Friday, September 3, 2010
Self that i know
when starting to run, my angle feel pain and I was slow down and stand there for a while but i still continue to run.
After the pain is off, I still can't get it and I realized that is nothing more and I'm still the ordinary person.
throughout these years, one important message I have realized was I'm not a person who born with special talent and given a hidden potential in certain area. No, I'm not one of them.
throughout these years, I fight for what I got and I build from nothing but zero.
It happen to my study as well, I required long period of time to adapt myself to that particular area. Is a relatively long lag time. yeah, that is me.
I have no talent on anything, even i tried to involved in it for a long time and it always stop at certain degree of standard, e.g. at 60-70% and it stop. It hardly for me to perform good and it always depends on luck.
For sure I'll wonder, how much I wish to be "that" particular person. I'm not like few of my secondary school friend that their "brain nerve system" is connected very very well. They can take something new very fast and i would never like my best friend can read a book seven times before an exam. No, I'm not one of them.
sometime it make me feel like, who am i and what the world need me for. But from Christian view, I'm unique in what i'm.
I'm a creation, my life and right to live here is a gift. Yet why i'm not satisfying with what I'm.
I got a good gf, meaning she very very good to me.
The most important objectives or wish to me is, I dont hope to be a burden for anyone in my life.
I hope I got that ability for people lying on me safely.
a simple wish, and dear lord, sorry for being unsatisfying for what I'm
for me, I will accept what I'm.
After the pain is off, I still can't get it and I realized that is nothing more and I'm still the ordinary person.
throughout these years, one important message I have realized was I'm not a person who born with special talent and given a hidden potential in certain area. No, I'm not one of them.
throughout these years, I fight for what I got and I build from nothing but zero.
It happen to my study as well, I required long period of time to adapt myself to that particular area. Is a relatively long lag time. yeah, that is me.
I have no talent on anything, even i tried to involved in it for a long time and it always stop at certain degree of standard, e.g. at 60-70% and it stop. It hardly for me to perform good and it always depends on luck.
For sure I'll wonder, how much I wish to be "that" particular person. I'm not like few of my secondary school friend that their "brain nerve system" is connected very very well. They can take something new very fast and i would never like my best friend can read a book seven times before an exam. No, I'm not one of them.
sometime it make me feel like, who am i and what the world need me for. But from Christian view, I'm unique in what i'm.
I'm a creation, my life and right to live here is a gift. Yet why i'm not satisfying with what I'm.
I got a good gf, meaning she very very good to me.
The most important objectives or wish to me is, I dont hope to be a burden for anyone in my life.
I hope I got that ability for people lying on me safely.
a simple wish, and dear lord, sorry for being unsatisfying for what I'm
for me, I will accept what I'm.
Tuesday, August 31, 2010
life is gift
Time to emo again.
I heard something and the heart of comparing is pop out again.
argh. shouldn't compare actually.
I hate and i avoid hearing something great from other, "He is rich" "he score 4A" "he is talented".
These stuffs making me feel pressure and make me shout out, I will better than them.
But when the time I want to shout out, i being silenced because I can't. Yes, I can't be better than anyone when I desired to. That is a lot of ambiguity out there that i wouldn't know whether I can or cannot.
Sigh
God make us specific and what we are.
Just like I'm unique in knowing all thing in average. With the concept of "best or nothing" from Benz, you can say I'm nothing. XD
Anyway, talents and outcome is gift from lord.
Maybe I'm better than the one who take 30 or more years to success by taking 29 years time.
well... is still success anyway.
anyway, thx lord for everything he had gave... and fortunate enough I'm not born as a female at Afghanistan.
I heard something and the heart of comparing is pop out again.
argh. shouldn't compare actually.
I hate and i avoid hearing something great from other, "He is rich" "he score 4A" "he is talented".
These stuffs making me feel pressure and make me shout out, I will better than them.
But when the time I want to shout out, i being silenced because I can't. Yes, I can't be better than anyone when I desired to. That is a lot of ambiguity out there that i wouldn't know whether I can or cannot.
Sigh
God make us specific and what we are.
Just like I'm unique in knowing all thing in average. With the concept of "best or nothing" from Benz, you can say I'm nothing. XD
Anyway, talents and outcome is gift from lord.
Maybe I'm better than the one who take 30 or more years to success by taking 29 years time.
well... is still success anyway.
anyway, thx lord for everything he had gave... and fortunate enough I'm not born as a female at Afghanistan.
Saturday, August 21, 2010
A love of a mother
this blog post was inspired by observing my 7 cute little cuties this morning.
when i try to touch the little one, the mother of these seven fellow will come quickly as it want to see whether got any danger or not? or try to protect them because I'm dangerous... =..=
I saw a young one walking alone away from the group, den the mother go and bite him (helping this young little one clean up it body). I feel amazed and i feel the love.
mother's love is wonderful.. And while i looking on them, I said: "god, look at your creation. Is wonderful.. and the mother's love, i know it is not happen by chance but with your own hand, u make this.
I know You are watching us, just like me watching them now."
sigh.. suddenly miss my family. quite a period of time not home.
Thursday, August 19, 2010
I'm a damn weird guy! but i like it~~
I'm a weird guy, something pop up from my mind which i'm totally agree.
I'm weird in friendship and I'm weird in study as well.
Nah.. Not i don't like to talk much, but it is hardly to find myself talk to each another well by just two of us. I will be more humorous mostly in group of peoples.
I so weird that I don talk much to an old friend mainly because I'm trying to hide the distance between the niche changes. of course, saying hi but saying not more than that to a good friend sound so weird and lack of friendliness. I try to avoid this.
What i do now a day, i don talk much..
a principle of mine being other's friend is, i don back-stab, i don talk nice thing, i don pretend "brothers" to each another.
But whenever u ask, i will help.
So is it sound not sincere? sincerity doesn't need to show out just like we believe in god. XD
I'm weird in friendship and I'm weird in study as well.
Nah.. Not i don't like to talk much, but it is hardly to find myself talk to each another well by just two of us. I will be more humorous mostly in group of peoples.
I so weird that I don talk much to an old friend mainly because I'm trying to hide the distance between the niche changes. of course, saying hi but saying not more than that to a good friend sound so weird and lack of friendliness. I try to avoid this.
What i do now a day, i don talk much..
a principle of mine being other's friend is, i don back-stab, i don talk nice thing, i don pretend "brothers" to each another.
But whenever u ask, i will help.
So is it sound not sincere? sincerity doesn't need to show out just like we believe in god. XD
Tuesday, August 10, 2010
Friday, August 6, 2010
less update the blog now cause recently was busy like an ant.. argh... lots and lots of tons and tons of works. I want to shout "give me more time".
argh.. i got that heart i got that motivation. but i don have enough time.
So, i come out with new plan. Hope it will make more time.
god please bless me.
argh.. i got that heart i got that motivation. but i don have enough time.
So, i come out with new plan. Hope it will make more time.
god please bless me.
Tuesday, August 3, 2010
An unhappy Dean
Getting an honour thing from Uni is suppose to feel honour about it
But i feel how ironic when i holding a 16.5 marks midterm paper couple of hours ago and holding a dean list the next.
argh...
Thx for encouragement from Dr lim.
yeah. Don take it as a momentum to drive me to higher level.
after all, im not good in semester.
try to got an A minus for my environment if possible.
Friday, July 30, 2010
environmental consciousness
Now a day people are getting aggressive and great involvement in green. Lets talk about global warming effect.
global warming effect is some sort of gaseous (high density) covered the earth like a blanket so that the heat is not reflected out as infrared radiation (That why the weather here is so weird and hot).
photoradiation from sunlight suppose strong in frequency and of course in the range of visible light and also strong UV range. But somehow our ozon layer do the jobs and also the air density on the earth surface level doing their job as well. what job? inelastic scattering - so that it give u HOT, HEAT - infrared. That why we are hot here.
That is a relationship between buying stuff and HOT. High purchasing power is the ability of human, i admit.
When their a pile of solids, going through a lot of manufacturing process, chemical additives which required of electricity, coal burning and photochemical smoke generation - give u, cosmetic products, vehicles, foods and etc.
That is how high purchasing power of us generate a lots of problem to the environment.
for me, off the light, off the fans isn't the best way to save the earth, human race and living creatures. Think, how many coal burned and how much electricity used for your BB cream, your lipstick and your whitening products then you will know what causes the global warming
global warming effect is some sort of gaseous (high density) covered the earth like a blanket so that the heat is not reflected out as infrared radiation (That why the weather here is so weird and hot).
photoradiation from sunlight suppose strong in frequency and of course in the range of visible light and also strong UV range. But somehow our ozon layer do the jobs and also the air density on the earth surface level doing their job as well. what job? inelastic scattering - so that it give u HOT, HEAT - infrared. That why we are hot here.
That is a relationship between buying stuff and HOT. High purchasing power is the ability of human, i admit.
When their a pile of solids, going through a lot of manufacturing process, chemical additives which required of electricity, coal burning and photochemical smoke generation - give u, cosmetic products, vehicles, foods and etc.
That is how high purchasing power of us generate a lots of problem to the environment.
for me, off the light, off the fans isn't the best way to save the earth, human race and living creatures. Think, how many coal burned and how much electricity used for your BB cream, your lipstick and your whitening products then you will know what causes the global warming
Monday, July 19, 2010
Sunday, July 18, 2010
God is hope, light and purpose of living.
Reminding myself "Jesus live within my heart"
so that I can be strong and be courageous in every step.
So that I won't be wrong in perception that I live happily because of good income instead living because of Christ.
apologize in every sinful things that are committed...
sorry Lord. hope You will forgive what had I done.
Reminding myself "Jesus live within my heart"
so that I can be strong and be courageous in every step.
So that I won't be wrong in perception that I live happily because of good income instead living because of Christ.
apologize in every sinful things that are committed...
sorry Lord. hope You will forgive what had I done.
Wednesday, July 14, 2010
Monday, July 12, 2010
Sunday, July 11, 2010
New Mission
new mission of mine as a baby Christian:
1) fix the relationship problem within the chemistry group.
2) correct the wrong mindset that judge people wrongly and also prejudices.
3) cultivate people instead of criticizing people actions, we advise them.
oh ya.. forget to say the main targeting people. dear all seniors of chemistry
1) fix the relationship problem within the chemistry group.
2) correct the wrong mindset that judge people wrongly and also prejudices.
3) cultivate people instead of criticizing people actions, we advise them.
oh ya.. forget to say the main targeting people. dear all seniors of chemistry
Wednesday, July 7, 2010
friends and 7/7 prayer meeting
what is the English word 'friend'?
friend mean we play together, we fight shoulder by shoulder, we blame each other, we angry each other, we don't talk to each other, and realized how stupid each and another after that we back to the starting point when we first meet each and another.
recording today prayer meeting item. So that those did not show up can know too.
1) to be more friendly (caring) and sharing
2) be more patient on works (or anything, relationship) and high tolerance to problems. (purpose: make life happier if u willing to accept more, just like what our father Jesus done.)
3) pray for tomorrow test: student have more patient on study, clearer mind, and rest completely even take shorter time.
What forget to pray is: glory, richness or pride isn't the thing that life fighting for. I hope all Christian can live with God in their heart. (What mean?) follow the rule, verse ordered by lord.
I pray for all Christian try to see things from Jesus eye and not from their own eye.
amen.
friend mean we play together, we fight shoulder by shoulder, we blame each other, we angry each other, we don't talk to each other, and realized how stupid each and another after that we back to the starting point when we first meet each and another.
recording today prayer meeting item. So that those did not show up can know too.
1) to be more friendly (caring) and sharing
2) be more patient on works (or anything, relationship) and high tolerance to problems. (purpose: make life happier if u willing to accept more, just like what our father Jesus done.)
3) pray for tomorrow test: student have more patient on study, clearer mind, and rest completely even take shorter time.
What forget to pray is: glory, richness or pride isn't the thing that life fighting for. I hope all Christian can live with God in their heart. (What mean?) follow the rule, verse ordered by lord.
I pray for all Christian try to see things from Jesus eye and not from their own eye.
amen.
Tuesday, July 6, 2010
chemistry night
yes! Just finished the most busiest week i ever had, I've enjoyed with the chemistry night even though I'm working on that particular day. Is good, hopefully next chem night junior will bring some MJ music to Dr.Ha and also Some pops song for Dr.Ong.
Have a great night at UTAR for the first time with Joanne. It is a great night for us.
Kevinder performance is good and the song of "it's my life" still clear in my mind.
too bad i forget to record a video of him and also he lost his voice on closing song.. ahaha... Sayang sekali.
It is a great night and also great opportunity for us, our chem member to know each other more, everyone is growing friendlier.
say bye bye to the busiest week, and now is the mid semester week...
agh... lost my track on the schedule for one and more week. back to the track now and trying to fixed back what have miss up.
I've told to be a opener and closer for tommorow prayer meeting. I've told to prepare.... erh... i still don't know have to talk about what.. As u see, I'm still not a ori. christian... baby christian for roughly a year... =..=
God bless..
Have a great night at UTAR for the first time with Joanne. It is a great night for us.
Kevinder performance is good and the song of "it's my life" still clear in my mind.
too bad i forget to record a video of him and also he lost his voice on closing song.. ahaha... Sayang sekali.
It is a great night and also great opportunity for us, our chem member to know each other more, everyone is growing friendlier.
say bye bye to the busiest week, and now is the mid semester week...
agh... lost my track on the schedule for one and more week. back to the track now and trying to fixed back what have miss up.
I've told to be a opener and closer for tommorow prayer meeting. I've told to prepare.... erh... i still don't know have to talk about what.. As u see, I'm still not a ori. christian... baby christian for roughly a year... =..=
God bless..
Friday, July 2, 2010
did not attend the FYP day today cause I've once again change the topic to copper nanoparticles.
did not read or even prepared for the project... cause i was busy on doing assignment, doing report and study..
brain is not functioning now...
used up 5 hours to settle a question, not going to do well on the final i suppose...
lord.. i need your help...
did not read or even prepared for the project... cause i was busy on doing assignment, doing report and study..
brain is not functioning now...
used up 5 hours to settle a question, not going to do well on the final i suppose...
lord.. i need your help...
Sunday, June 27, 2010
Thursday, June 24, 2010
human are really complicated or maybe I'm come from a simple family.
I truly believe that sincere and trust is only can happen between man and god for now.
Life is difficult to carry on now a day.
every morning wake up still i able to glad that I able to wake up.
I'm still find the reason, why people words are so harsh to my ear. Their joke doesn't seem like a joke to me, maybe I from a village. haha. concept different.
I'm perfectionist, before. Because things doesn't go what i scale for. say me lame please.
emo-ing.
I believe in my way because i know my scale is correct now
but lord... strengthen and enforce me to full filled every single step in my life.
I mind my words when i talk to someone.
I mind my attitude when I do on something.
but please protect me and making me deaf against wicked words
please blind me from seeing two face people...
I will stay still even standing alone.
I truly believe that sincere and trust is only can happen between man and god for now.
Life is difficult to carry on now a day.
every morning wake up still i able to glad that I able to wake up.
I'm still find the reason, why people words are so harsh to my ear. Their joke doesn't seem like a joke to me, maybe I from a village. haha. concept different.
I'm perfectionist, before. Because things doesn't go what i scale for. say me lame please.
emo-ing.
I believe in my way because i know my scale is correct now
but lord... strengthen and enforce me to full filled every single step in my life.
I mind my words when i talk to someone.
I mind my attitude when I do on something.
but please protect me and making me deaf against wicked words
please blind me from seeing two face people...
I will stay still even standing alone.
Wednesday, June 23, 2010
first of my life
interesting day of mine for the first ever visit from foreigner but sadly they are spreading "false christian belief"
but anyway, i feel weird on the middle of the reading(luckily me myself got read bible daily).
Is is somehow shows my faith to lord father?
hmm... anyway, thanks for protected me from evils...
i feel afraid, but also feel fortunate enough to know my god and still until now, holding it tight. hehee..
thank you lord..
but anyway, i feel weird on the middle of the reading(luckily me myself got read bible daily).
Is is somehow shows my faith to lord father?
hmm... anyway, thanks for protected me from evils...
i feel afraid, but also feel fortunate enough to know my god and still until now, holding it tight. hehee..
thank you lord..
Sunday, June 20, 2010
Saturday, June 19, 2010
christian to me
i believe christian won't take physical result as a guide of life and i also believe christian won't use physical outcome to judge a person good or bad.
come from heart even that guys don't smile always.
come from heart even that guys don't smile always.
winter
i'm always thinking of going to winter country a pure white scenery.
where should i go for the graduate vacation? Go for cheaper place? or celebrate a Christmas at real winter season.
my little wish. hopefully i got the opportunity.
Friday, June 18, 2010
5 believes of mine
phew... finished most of the stuffs but still have a lot more and coming more.
the never end work just like in a industry the luckier part is the politics here is less severe than outside one. But yet, some gossip is annoying me. without further sparks the thing, I'm swallow all the things into my stomach. After all, it lets me know who is the one wearing mask. Well.. i hand it to lord.
the thing i believe:
1) everything is written. fate is written and is managed by lord. pray more if u want to rewrite the fate.
you are fate to fail on something, bear in mind that try to understand what lord want from you. "you are not ready?", "that is other solutions?" etc.
2) i believe goal isn't a good director to me. I believe on direction but not goal. it is not working on me when i trying to set a good goal because usually efforts paid is much lesser to achieve it. So i turn myself to "try me best-full pump".
3) i believe comparing is not good because turning more aggressive isn't help at all because patient always give the best part. or else jealous will haunting me all the way.
4) i believe good and bad isn't come with the results itself but the heart of the works or that person. If u are good in everything, but you are stingy, jealous and kia su(takut kalah)... well, it is not for me to respect you, haha.
5) i believe I wont distinction in every work but efforts will make it better. In equations' world, something would have to give out if u want to gain something. Just like "time" lost when you want get "good result".
the never end work just like in a industry the luckier part is the politics here is less severe than outside one. But yet, some gossip is annoying me. without further sparks the thing, I'm swallow all the things into my stomach. After all, it lets me know who is the one wearing mask. Well.. i hand it to lord.
the thing i believe:
1) everything is written. fate is written and is managed by lord. pray more if u want to rewrite the fate.
you are fate to fail on something, bear in mind that try to understand what lord want from you. "you are not ready?", "that is other solutions?" etc.
2) i believe goal isn't a good director to me. I believe on direction but not goal. it is not working on me when i trying to set a good goal because usually efforts paid is much lesser to achieve it. So i turn myself to "try me best-full pump".
3) i believe comparing is not good because turning more aggressive isn't help at all because patient always give the best part. or else jealous will haunting me all the way.
4) i believe good and bad isn't come with the results itself but the heart of the works or that person. If u are good in everything, but you are stingy, jealous and kia su(takut kalah)... well, it is not for me to respect you, haha.
5) i believe I wont distinction in every work but efforts will make it better. In equations' world, something would have to give out if u want to gain something. Just like "time" lost when you want get "good result".
Monday, June 14, 2010
great thing
Is time for me to be more patient.. yes, i had more patient now. Is already week 3, have been waited for 3 weeks, a little bit longer won't cause anything changed much.
it is good steps for me too because in this case i will do full pump to my study already..
this coming midterm. study hard.
it is good steps for me too because in this case i will do full pump to my study already..
this coming midterm. study hard.
Sunday, June 13, 2010
lost my way
ya right. im always the wrong guys..
you know why? because i keep scolding by my gf.
i keep her cloth for her. She say why u don keep to my room.
i promise her one week for football rest, and i go for football today. She was unhappy.
im tried to please her always, but this seem not long lasting.. is tired, im tired..
dear lord.. teach me wat to do..
you know why? because i keep scolding by my gf.
i keep her cloth for her. She say why u don keep to my room.
i promise her one week for football rest, and i go for football today. She was unhappy.
im tried to please her always, but this seem not long lasting.. is tired, im tired..
dear lord.. teach me wat to do..
Saturday, June 12, 2010
7 sins
Is New changed of my blog. I feel it is nice.
well yesterday was totally out of my mind. I'm easy to get mad if the thing is not under the control..
midterm is coming, a little worried... can't understand all
I shall focus and try my best...
Dear lord. sorry for doing mistakes again.. hope u forgive me.
7 sins: wrath, sloth, lust, gluttony, greed, pride and envy.
well yesterday was totally out of my mind. I'm easy to get mad if the thing is not under the control..
midterm is coming, a little worried... can't understand all
I shall focus and try my best...
Dear lord. sorry for doing mistakes again.. hope u forgive me.
7 sins: wrath, sloth, lust, gluttony, greed, pride and envy.
Friday, June 11, 2010
about FYP
i'm in totally angry mode now. What stupid thing does this campus have, the lecturer is so ambiguous and gone through without knowing availability of chemicals and machine.
I've wasted my time to research so much and money as well. Now telling that changed to palladium nanoparticles? Alright.
Yes say yes. No say no. I wont bother it if u say NO! please don waste my time.
reliable person? i also finding.
I've wasted my time to research so much and money as well. Now telling that changed to palladium nanoparticles? Alright.
Yes say yes. No say no. I wont bother it if u say NO! please don waste my time.
reliable person? i also finding.
Monday, June 7, 2010
Today
today i will write a rather brief blog...
1) after a semester her teaching still solid without change.
2) is a lot of thing tat is rather too brief for me to get it in depth.
3) input must be high so output will relatively up to standard.
4) reading from slide is not help me at all.
5) lots of info on note i wish to have more elaboration.
well of course i won't comment on it on the UTAR commentary system. It is rather pointless system.
sigh, good thing is, I know I have to put more time on her subject now.
1) after a semester her teaching still solid without change.
2) is a lot of thing tat is rather too brief for me to get it in depth.
3) input must be high so output will relatively up to standard.
4) reading from slide is not help me at all.
5) lots of info on note i wish to have more elaboration.
well of course i won't comment on it on the UTAR commentary system. It is rather pointless system.
sigh, good thing is, I know I have to put more time on her subject now.
Sunday, June 6, 2010
Omnia 2
is a very happy day of mine i should say, because my parent ordered me a smartphone, samsung omnia II same as pei wen using now..
im very happy with it but generally feel bad because my parent spend another big amount of money to me.. well it cost them nearly 2K for that phone.. sigh.. sorry mom.
well i not sure how well on this omnia II but what i heard is not bad.. my frens called me don buy symbians phone which i agree that symbian phone is lagger phone.
yeah, why? because my previos phone is also an symbian OS phone and is lag like hell..
anyway, it is a revolution of mine by trying phone other than nokia for the first time.
hope i will like the performance of my new pet gadget.
and bye, nokia 3250..
hopefully that guy will fix u up..
im very happy with it but generally feel bad because my parent spend another big amount of money to me.. well it cost them nearly 2K for that phone.. sigh.. sorry mom.
well i not sure how well on this omnia II but what i heard is not bad.. my frens called me don buy symbians phone which i agree that symbian phone is lagger phone.
yeah, why? because my previos phone is also an symbian OS phone and is lag like hell..
anyway, it is a revolution of mine by trying phone other than nokia for the first time.
hope i will like the performance of my new pet gadget.
and bye, nokia 3250..
hopefully that guy will fix u up..
Wednesday, June 2, 2010
thank you
That is a lot of thing wish to write today.
First, thank lord that because of you, I was able to think wisely, kept me away of evil thought and also I breathing because you have gave it to me.
Thank lord that giving opportunity to expose to your words, even that is very busy in my life, a lot of unpleasant things or troublesome things happen to me, my mind will still flashed that I need to read the bible today. Father lord please forgive me for the mistake I’ve done, e.g. the social mistake.
Lord father, I pray that you will still hold me tight with you and bless me for my academic performance.
Here come the blog post,
That is a lot of thing happen and all my works still in the trail, I haven’t lost yet…
Struggling with the discipline action, following tightly to last semester study idea. Yet my table wasn’t out yet, why? I have to trail for first week before the actual one come out.
I’m the person who like to motivate people but that is not because of feeling of superiority, I’m just a normal person. Ya, is dean, but is last semester stuff, everything will start all over again now, who know you will better than me.
I’ve learn not attacking people with words, although sometime my patient is off. But still im trying hard to doing good, doing righteously according to HIS.
I sticked a stuff at my room last semester, printed words, “look to the high sky, ya, HE is the one leading me more desired to be a better man.”
Lol.. I still din tear off yet. Keeping it, as good as possible.
Our society need to understand more about god’s love… I’ve changed, evolved (not according to the darwin’s theory) in my mind…
Ya, is time to be more mature.
Amen.
First, thank lord that because of you, I was able to think wisely, kept me away of evil thought and also I breathing because you have gave it to me.
Thank lord that giving opportunity to expose to your words, even that is very busy in my life, a lot of unpleasant things or troublesome things happen to me, my mind will still flashed that I need to read the bible today. Father lord please forgive me for the mistake I’ve done, e.g. the social mistake.
Lord father, I pray that you will still hold me tight with you and bless me for my academic performance.
Here come the blog post,
That is a lot of thing happen and all my works still in the trail, I haven’t lost yet…
Struggling with the discipline action, following tightly to last semester study idea. Yet my table wasn’t out yet, why? I have to trail for first week before the actual one come out.
I’m the person who like to motivate people but that is not because of feeling of superiority, I’m just a normal person. Ya, is dean, but is last semester stuff, everything will start all over again now, who know you will better than me.
I’ve learn not attacking people with words, although sometime my patient is off. But still im trying hard to doing good, doing righteously according to HIS.
I sticked a stuff at my room last semester, printed words, “look to the high sky, ya, HE is the one leading me more desired to be a better man.”
Lol.. I still din tear off yet. Keeping it, as good as possible.
Our society need to understand more about god’s love… I’ve changed, evolved (not according to the darwin’s theory) in my mind…
Ya, is time to be more mature.
Amen.
Monday, May 31, 2010
Rock Lee of my class
It is not an easy semester as almost everything is still too new to me.
by comparing last semester, I've miss up the 3 month semester breaks.
But somehow a classmate of mine recall me the spirit of never give up.
He say, although the opportunity is small, the light is dim, but i will never give it up.
Good spirit! it remind me my favorite Naruto character, Rock Lee.
ya, a small part of my life inherit Lee-Chan characteristic. Me too, beside of never give up
focus and discipline are equal important.
focus, don compare to other, compare to me, myself
discipline; tired, laziness is not a thing can take me down on the way.
I saw myself also in dim light of being a dean again.
fight for miracle. fight for all.
God will help.
by comparing last semester, I've miss up the 3 month semester breaks.
But somehow a classmate of mine recall me the spirit of never give up.
He say, although the opportunity is small, the light is dim, but i will never give it up.
Good spirit! it remind me my favorite Naruto character, Rock Lee.
ya, a small part of my life inherit Lee-Chan characteristic. Me too, beside of never give up
focus and discipline are equal important.
focus, don compare to other, compare to me, myself
discipline; tired, laziness is not a thing can take me down on the way.
I saw myself also in dim light of being a dean again.
fight for miracle. fight for all.
God will help.
Sunday, May 30, 2010
last day of holiday
today is my last day of holiday, planning for study the rest of the syllabus but did not do it. Is not like last semester anymore.
but anyway, thx god for granted my wishes last semester.
start my crazy day now! youth spirit! strike!
but anyway, thx god for granted my wishes last semester.
start my crazy day now! youth spirit! strike!
Saturday, May 29, 2010
one day trip
yoyoyo... having fun today but too spend a lot of money.
we saw the pun cheng duck noodle, but after parking, we got into wrong shop and have our duck noodle.
i feel weird. why so near i was wonder.... hmm..
den i walk to another few shop lot. then i saw the one we saw before parking.
lol...
shian hoi was asking... weird lar.. why just now so many people now so less crowd?
lol...
after go ipoh and watch prince of persia and gone to east garden supper. now only reached home. =..=
tired
result out..
but a bit disappointed on colloid. but nvm i tried and get myself paid.
we saw the pun cheng duck noodle, but after parking, we got into wrong shop and have our duck noodle.
i feel weird. why so near i was wonder.... hmm..
den i walk to another few shop lot. then i saw the one we saw before parking.
lol...
shian hoi was asking... weird lar.. why just now so many people now so less crowd?
lol...
after go ipoh and watch prince of persia and gone to east garden supper. now only reached home. =..=
tired
result out..
but a bit disappointed on colloid. but nvm i tried and get myself paid.
Thursday, May 27, 2010
world cup 2010
coming! world cup 2010 is coming soon on the land of jungle, south africa!
cool! i waiting for argentina to kick off all other national team
two golden striker for argentina
cool! i waiting for argentina to kick off all other national team
two golden striker for argentina
Sunday, May 16, 2010
next semester, nightmare.
got bad feeling on next semester subjects, just go through one of past year series of the Basic professional writing. ARHHH! 250words for letter essay writing! 40 marks of memo writing and “fill in the blank”. Oh no. grammar! Grammar! I’m seriously kicked from it. Haih…
may god bless me…
don drop out from the worst GPA I ever got.
may god bless me…
don drop out from the worst GPA I ever got.
Friday, May 14, 2010
Great Day
It is been a great day today because I’ve finished all my harsh exam period. Tired yet feel good.
Still wondering on what my results will be. Hopefully it is improved. I mean, comparing to the year one semester one.
Haha! Please let me earn some grade higher than that.
Try to flashback my hardship of this semester, following the time table, work like robots and sleep 6 hours a day, studying on noon time even I’m tired like hell.
I giving myself an 80% efforts for this semester, although I lazy-lazy sometimes.
Rest for few day then have to continue prepare for next journey. I think I will be write a lot here, because next semester I’m taking professional writing, one subject that impossible for me to get A. hahaha.
Yosh! with the power of youth! Strike!!
Still wondering on what my results will be. Hopefully it is improved. I mean, comparing to the year one semester one.
Haha! Please let me earn some grade higher than that.
Try to flashback my hardship of this semester, following the time table, work like robots and sleep 6 hours a day, studying on noon time even I’m tired like hell.
I giving myself an 80% efforts for this semester, although I lazy-lazy sometimes.
Rest for few day then have to continue prepare for next journey. I think I will be write a lot here, because next semester I’m taking professional writing, one subject that impossible for me to get A. hahaha.
Yosh! with the power of youth! Strike!!
Saturday, May 8, 2010
hungry tiger is on move
7 days more. FOOD! i need FOOD!
I WILL BE BACK!!
prepare for 50 myr for travelling and foods!
I WILL BE BACK!!
prepare for 50 myr for travelling and foods!
Friday, May 7, 2010
ego and gifted
ego, pride, driving one crazy; letting him lost the sense of measurement.
what is sense of measurement? it means that lost of ability to determine the value. e.g. comparison between not enough and great.
This post is come from a inspiration from facebook, a person post.
He said " stop talking rubbish, action more than words."
ya i agree with it but aren't people around him will feel he is ego? well, is not for me to judge anyone.
by sharing my own experiences, for me, if i'm ever try to be ego, i will surely lost the balance; become self-centered and often very kia su.
What happen is, very weird, perhaps law of nature, so far those i meet is ego, fail after all and it happen as well to me. It reminded me that, there is a ego person, finish an exam very fast, and yet forget to do the last question. after summit, he shout with disappointment.
I din laugh, but i use it as caution to myself. never for me to go too extreme in life. yes. u can say i'm not capable.
But i just want to do what i able in perfect way.
blogger, don have try to ego when ever u praise by a boss, or getting top in class.
bible said, god favor those humble.
trying our best keeping our heart pure and righteous.
what is sense of measurement? it means that lost of ability to determine the value. e.g. comparison between not enough and great.
This post is come from a inspiration from facebook, a person post.
He said " stop talking rubbish, action more than words."
ya i agree with it but aren't people around him will feel he is ego? well, is not for me to judge anyone.
by sharing my own experiences, for me, if i'm ever try to be ego, i will surely lost the balance; become self-centered and often very kia su.
What happen is, very weird, perhaps law of nature, so far those i meet is ego, fail after all and it happen as well to me. It reminded me that, there is a ego person, finish an exam very fast, and yet forget to do the last question. after summit, he shout with disappointment.
I din laugh, but i use it as caution to myself. never for me to go too extreme in life. yes. u can say i'm not capable.
But i just want to do what i able in perfect way.
blogger, don have try to ego when ever u praise by a boss, or getting top in class.
bible said, god favor those humble.
trying our best keeping our heart pure and righteous.
Thursday, May 6, 2010
sharper than swords
the tongue, the word from it, wicked, shapeless and shadeless dagger that stag within u.
it is not physically exist but u can see and hear as long everyday as long as u have your ears and eyes.
i found this book at utar Christianity section, named "101 strong words from proverb" is written by a English guy, express the verse of the scripture in very interesting way and humor in the sense.
"there is one whose rash words are like sword thrusts, but the tongue of the wise bring healing." proverbs 12.18
the author using college students to express how sharp the words from mouth can be.
The way insulting people are not encouraging and yet most of the man here are practicing it. moreover, with time flow, they are even trained and sharpen the skill of insulting. e.g. U can comparing how people insulting or make u as laughter from younger age until now. dimension of time prove it all.
tongue, words, a dagger causing no physiological harm; u can't charge the person violence with the books of laws.
human, same in nature, unkindness, harm each other while they can. and it happen even at Genesis when Cain kill Abel because of JEALOUS.
all snap from the books
But this book really inspired me, a lot of other good thing as well.
find this book if u free.
it is not physically exist but u can see and hear as long everyday as long as u have your ears and eyes.
i found this book at utar Christianity section, named "101 strong words from proverb" is written by a English guy, express the verse of the scripture in very interesting way and humor in the sense.
"there is one whose rash words are like sword thrusts, but the tongue of the wise bring healing." proverbs 12.18
the author using college students to express how sharp the words from mouth can be.
The way insulting people are not encouraging and yet most of the man here are practicing it. moreover, with time flow, they are even trained and sharpen the skill of insulting. e.g. U can comparing how people insulting or make u as laughter from younger age until now. dimension of time prove it all.
tongue, words, a dagger causing no physiological harm; u can't charge the person violence with the books of laws.
human, same in nature, unkindness, harm each other while they can. and it happen even at Genesis when Cain kill Abel because of JEALOUS.
all snap from the books
But this book really inspired me, a lot of other good thing as well.
find this book if u free.
Tuesday, May 4, 2010
say hi to final year
thinking of great image of future, handling with a SLR nikon camera at a lot of nice place; taking a stony building of Europes, capture a static motion of huge wave at Hawaii, soaring eagle at the high sky, lovely and peaceful flower garden at japan. I will be a professional camera man in future as a part of my hobby.
it is good to have some daydream sometimes.
it quite pressure for today and it was tiring. I have my shoulder pain again..
it going to be an end for this year and saying hi to the final year.
shall we all continue to quietly disappeared from the uni-society?
have been 2 years here, learned a lot of things and it sure a nice experience of meeting all people from different background and state.
It have been 2 years, and im still the same, dono how to well communicate with people, or rather i know only say "hi" and "recently do wat, today do wat or tomoro do wat".
ya, it is always few people only around with me, my very very small community group. I also dono why.
thinking that maybe many people afraid of me because i'm bright and don like to talk (heard it from a frens) lol... bright? u probably didn't meet my secondary school fren, den u will know wat is bright. next, dono got wrong perception or not, but there is still people look down on me. but wat im going to say is, "ya i know u UEC got how many A, stpm got how many A, SPM got how many A. please continue to do so... don mind it anymore.. is already final year.
my life still remain.. no spark no darkness.. just normal as usual
it is good to have some daydream sometimes.
it quite pressure for today and it was tiring. I have my shoulder pain again..
it going to be an end for this year and saying hi to the final year.
shall we all continue to quietly disappeared from the uni-society?
have been 2 years here, learned a lot of things and it sure a nice experience of meeting all people from different background and state.
It have been 2 years, and im still the same, dono how to well communicate with people, or rather i know only say "hi" and "recently do wat, today do wat or tomoro do wat".
ya, it is always few people only around with me, my very very small community group. I also dono why.
thinking that maybe many people afraid of me because i'm bright and don like to talk (heard it from a frens) lol... bright? u probably didn't meet my secondary school fren, den u will know wat is bright. next, dono got wrong perception or not, but there is still people look down on me. but wat im going to say is, "ya i know u UEC got how many A, stpm got how many A, SPM got how many A. please continue to do so... don mind it anymore.. is already final year.
my life still remain.. no spark no darkness.. just normal as usual
Thursday, April 29, 2010
pre-exam periods
exam is around the corner; so stress and tired.
my way of preparing is so ambiguous; hopefully this new style of preparation will help in my final.
not feeling well on this morning; and after finish a chapter of IPC, i go read the bible.
when i flipping it, the appendix part took my sight. woa! now only i know this bible got teach about bible study. so flip to the title "stress".
here is what i got for today.
John 14:1 "do not let your hearts be troubled, trust in God; trust also in me"
amen.
my way of preparing is so ambiguous; hopefully this new style of preparation will help in my final.
not feeling well on this morning; and after finish a chapter of IPC, i go read the bible.
when i flipping it, the appendix part took my sight. woa! now only i know this bible got teach about bible study. so flip to the title "stress".
here is what i got for today.
John 14:1 "do not let your hearts be troubled, trust in God; trust also in me"
amen.
Tuesday, April 27, 2010
farmer
i got a dream but seems never can be true.
i shout to get A, sky fall down an A?
i plant an A, but it turn grow into other species.
haha! A dream cannot be true. but yet, i'm not giving up on it.
because i know how many time i shout to get A, the sky wont fall down an A.
im not planting a good seed of A, but i'm skilling myself how to plant an A.
everything seems handle by destiny, by god, so have a peaceful heart and try the best practicing in A way.
i shout to get A, sky fall down an A?
i plant an A, but it turn grow into other species.
haha! A dream cannot be true. but yet, i'm not giving up on it.
because i know how many time i shout to get A, the sky wont fall down an A.
im not planting a good seed of A, but i'm skilling myself how to plant an A.
everything seems handle by destiny, by god, so have a peaceful heart and try the best practicing in A way.
Friday, April 23, 2010
self-control
time, time, time... i need more time to balance myself.
telling myself, mustn't have the heart of competing or comparing. if want to compare, compare to yourself; if want to compete, compete with your own behavior or characters.
aspiration must not exist.
aspiration will drive me out of the trail.
i wish all subject can up to my standard; it would fine for me.
A and A- is not my level.
anything extra, is a gift from lord.
telling myself, mustn't have the heart of competing or comparing. if want to compare, compare to yourself; if want to compete, compete with your own behavior or characters.
aspiration must not exist.
aspiration will drive me out of the trail.
i wish all subject can up to my standard; it would fine for me.
A and A- is not my level.
anything extra, is a gift from lord.
Wednesday, April 21, 2010
TEACC, the main problem of this semester
I got myself A with 81% for the lab test part. I'm happy with it. not yesterday test only got 68. =..= disappointed.
but still i cant get an A or A- for the whole lab test, why? because my report suck. HAHAHA! probably can get a B+ lar.. =..= another B+
all my courseworks this semester are good good.. average all got 75% and above.
except transition metal =..= quiz... stupid, just get half out of 10.
the main obstacle now will be transition metal...
the past years are hard..
dono how to die later.
anyway, thx lord for the blessing.
but still i cant get an A or A- for the whole lab test, why? because my report suck. HAHAHA! probably can get a B+ lar.. =..= another B+
all my courseworks this semester are good good.. average all got 75% and above.
except transition metal =..= quiz... stupid, just get half out of 10.
the main obstacle now will be transition metal...
the past years are hard..
dono how to die later.
anyway, thx lord for the blessing.
Monday, April 19, 2010
haih..... sit too much d
very disappointed on today playing...
can't run, can't head, can't carry, can't defend, can't attack..
when leave my shoes behind, i feel my leg pain, when i put on my shoes, i cant stop well and cant shoot...
wat on earth am i on the pitch..
football is my favorite, but still it put me down...
can't run, can't head, can't carry, can't defend, can't attack..
when leave my shoes behind, i feel my leg pain, when i put on my shoes, i cant stop well and cant shoot...
wat on earth am i on the pitch..
football is my favorite, but still it put me down...
Sunday, April 18, 2010
I've changed, but it seems too late
Yesterday talking to a friend and disclosed some of my old time story. It is true that I at that time am so rotten. XD
Getting into a controlled school is kind of proud thing and I treat too pride enough and causing me fall from the desk.
I abandoned the effort and categories myself as part of brilliant community. I was totally idiot to think so.
Is very wrong to me when join again the group and I realized, they are already few miles further than me.
I feel insulted
I’ve isolated, no one rather pay their attention to me because I’m not worth at the class.
And make my first step. After all, I joined Utar and recent year, I’ve been better than last time.
But still,
Whose acknowledge me...?
Getting into a controlled school is kind of proud thing and I treat too pride enough and causing me fall from the desk.
I abandoned the effort and categories myself as part of brilliant community. I was totally idiot to think so.
Is very wrong to me when join again the group and I realized, they are already few miles further than me.
I feel insulted
I’ve isolated, no one rather pay their attention to me because I’m not worth at the class.
And make my first step. After all, I joined Utar and recent year, I’ve been better than last time.
But still,
Whose acknowledge me...?
Friday, April 16, 2010
under the mist of utar, there are disappointments
it is already a group that don have the sense of unity and now become worse just because second party.
IS like throwing a rotten meat to a bunch of hungry dogs... and they fight each other because of the rotten meat.
what had pissed me off is, why should everyone acting like want to kill the 5 person even that is not hatred in their own heart, just because of don want boycott by the majority or try to shows some mutual intention.
that is what really call coward.
Sick of that...
second thing is, just closed the comment system. that is just a useless things used to shows Utar really got intention to improve. empty cans nice in looking.
=..= disappointed by my primacy perception, because i thought all strong in their heart . disappointed because they are the same... very common chinese.. perhap, singapore's chinese.
IS like throwing a rotten meat to a bunch of hungry dogs... and they fight each other because of the rotten meat.
what had pissed me off is, why should everyone acting like want to kill the 5 person even that is not hatred in their own heart, just because of don want boycott by the majority or try to shows some mutual intention.
that is what really call coward.
Sick of that...
second thing is, just closed the comment system. that is just a useless things used to shows Utar really got intention to improve. empty cans nice in looking.
=..= disappointed by my primacy perception, because i thought all strong in their heart . disappointed because they are the same... very common chinese.. perhap, singapore's chinese.
Wednesday, April 14, 2010
A dream across the sea
being a citizen or a student living at oversea is always a dream to me.
this dream don seem clear enough because is too far for me.
But still, i wish i'm not restricted here in malaysia only.
the living pressure is increasing here yet the opportunity and the pay is still the same.
i'm looking forward for going to oversea, widen my mind.
hope i'm qualified for this small dream.
this dream don seem clear enough because is too far for me.
But still, i wish i'm not restricted here in malaysia only.
the living pressure is increasing here yet the opportunity and the pay is still the same.
i'm looking forward for going to oversea, widen my mind.
hope i'm qualified for this small dream.
Tuesday, April 13, 2010
YES! I MAKE MYSELF HOME!
there is pouring rain, heavily or very heavy rain.
i decide not to stay at campus with a tired body.
so i decide to confront the rain!
and i got stuck at middle of the road from utar to east lake.
i was not notice that the water dept is so deep or rather i din notice the roadside is flood.
i decide not to slow down other people by driving only 40kmj on the center of the road, instead i ride to the side.
my bike ceased because of water and i have to move the bike to the center of the road and start again.
after another quarter portion of road. the motor is dead.
and i have to move it home.
after all i reach home safely.
lucky me.
i decide not to stay at campus with a tired body.
so i decide to confront the rain!
and i got stuck at middle of the road from utar to east lake.
i was not notice that the water dept is so deep or rather i din notice the roadside is flood.
i decide not to slow down other people by driving only 40kmj on the center of the road, instead i ride to the side.
my bike ceased because of water and i have to move the bike to the center of the road and start again.
after another quarter portion of road. the motor is dead.
and i have to move it home.
after all i reach home safely.
lucky me.
Monday, April 12, 2010
Ever forturnate to meet someone
today i have come closer to you.
I feel fortunate to meet u and accept you as the one.
and you have taught me life shouldn't contained too much of desire or the desire is too extreme.
you teach me how to patient and seek of your presence.
thk you for the blessing and answering my prayer.
i'm still living.
thk you lord.
And i will leave up all my rest of life depending where u want me to go.
I feel fortunate to meet u and accept you as the one.
and you have taught me life shouldn't contained too much of desire or the desire is too extreme.
you teach me how to patient and seek of your presence.
thk you for the blessing and answering my prayer.
i'm still living.
thk you lord.
And i will leave up all my rest of life depending where u want me to go.
Saturday, April 10, 2010
In poor land
seriously need money now. Got problem with daily expenses.
Yet still hoping can buy a pair of shoes and glove.
may God bless me and provide me food...
Thursday, April 8, 2010
today is a good day
talking about today, my day of course, it is a very good day with no special mood and had my test done with "cheating". oops, sorry, is legally cheating in test. It is a open book test and a very first time having test in this way.. i mean continue the test after 3 hours. Yes, we all can check and get the answer den continue in answering the question 3 hours later. pretty cool ya.. And one of my fren say wasting my time to study so much; another one answer him, the lecturer give u a present, just accept it.
hahaha! i laughing over there.
eventually i don quite need external sources for the first session, or i din use any book at all and i've finish all the question. well, think it should be lucky. lucky enough that i know all the answer. of course i double checked, still got few minor careless thingy.. can't help, thing that cannot avoid.
well, i feel quite confident on this course after today test. but still can't must be careful enough on it.
thx dr.sim and ya, thanks lord father Jesus for answered my prayer.
hahaha! i laughing over there.
eventually i don quite need external sources for the first session, or i din use any book at all and i've finish all the question. well, think it should be lucky. lucky enough that i know all the answer. of course i double checked, still got few minor careless thingy.. can't help, thing that cannot avoid.
well, i feel quite confident on this course after today test. but still can't must be careful enough on it.
thx dr.sim and ya, thanks lord father Jesus for answered my prayer.
Tuesday, April 6, 2010
imagine what can i do
if let say like football and other sport things is forbidden. would it be a normal life by just starring the computer screen every day and night with tons of work load and nothing else can do.
that is life but only proved by living and it is suck.
I'm not destined life like this.
that is life but only proved by living and it is suck.
I'm not destined life like this.
Monday, April 5, 2010
quote
achievement is related to actions.
men and women found that they are success because they keep moving
they made the mistake but they never give up
men and women found that they are success because they keep moving
they made the mistake but they never give up
Friday, April 2, 2010
half-blood christian
this coming Sunday is the Easter day, where lot of believer become part of fellowship and yet i still a half-blood christian.
thinking of commitment to being a christian, commitment to lord; still feeling that i'm not ready for it.
sigh..
still learning from the basics about how to involve in christian living.
after all, the day of become pure blood christian will be become sooner than i thought.
hoping my parent allow it.
thinking of commitment to being a christian, commitment to lord; still feeling that i'm not ready for it.
sigh..
still learning from the basics about how to involve in christian living.
after all, the day of become pure blood christian will be become sooner than i thought.
hoping my parent allow it.
perfect
When a thing or human being introduced to the world, nothing and no one is perfect.
there is how coordination of different things and different people come from.
sigh... I'm still thinking of my midterm test although is not bloody look but still i mind it.
it maybe a perception that too normal to being good and can't accept any out of standard results, perhaps negatively.
telling myself that I'm not perfect and it is still in my standard, or maybe little drop from the usual standard.
time to be more discipline.
there is how coordination of different things and different people come from.
sigh... I'm still thinking of my midterm test although is not bloody look but still i mind it.
it maybe a perception that too normal to being good and can't accept any out of standard results, perhaps negatively.
telling myself that I'm not perfect and it is still in my standard, or maybe little drop from the usual standard.
time to be more discipline.
Tuesday, March 30, 2010
The world is sick or sleep?
human, human and human.. what sort of things is not related to human. George w.Bush, the former president of united state said:"global warming wasn't the fact of human activity." and al gore proved him bullshit.
religions has been used an excuse to create war, what sort of mindset gods works and patients have been misused by human. Human offend the world,the nature rule and god's will.
Still, how long human can still living well when there is no more thing to exploit.
Will god still forgive us? I'm shame and guilt to be part of the mankind.
religions has been used an excuse to create war, what sort of mindset gods works and patients have been misused by human. Human offend the world,the nature rule and god's will.
Still, how long human can still living well when there is no more thing to exploit.
Will god still forgive us? I'm shame and guilt to be part of the mankind.
Sunday, March 28, 2010
EARTH HOUR 27-3-2010
i had experienced the earth hour again yesterday night. the moon is bright and me and joanne decided to spend the earth hour in maximum. XD.
we play for an hour and precise time for map 1 (L4D) is just about 51 minutes to get through all. no witch met and few tanker appear. But i managed to kill several tanker with the help of grenade launcher. woohoo~ die u big meat!!
now here is my story of saving environment. saving?? erh.. think so.. i off light ma. XD
Monday, March 22, 2010
bless by lover(s)
reporting today performance, overall answering question is quite good, but not the performance. The question is not in depth and a lot of surface answers.
a lot in depth thing i don even know how to explain, and it shows that today answering question is just merely come out from memory, but of course i answer all well.
maybe is bless by the prayer of my girlfriend, I'm sure that she did pray for me because i received a message "add oil" from her. thanks her and love her so much.
today answering is quite ok. the final result will depend on god. But i thanks god, HE really gave me a lot of luck when answering the question, e.g. define surface tension.
hope everything will in my standard. hopefully not lower than 21.5 marks of my midterm.
a lot in depth thing i don even know how to explain, and it shows that today answering question is just merely come out from memory, but of course i answer all well.
maybe is bless by the prayer of my girlfriend, I'm sure that she did pray for me because i received a message "add oil" from her. thanks her and love her so much.
today answering is quite ok. the final result will depend on god. But i thanks god, HE really gave me a lot of luck when answering the question, e.g. define surface tension.
hope everything will in my standard. hopefully not lower than 21.5 marks of my midterm.
Thursday, March 18, 2010
SUPER SUNDAY!
Ok. This coming Sunday got a very match, IS MANCHESTER U. VS LIVERPOOL!!
Honestly, I desperate to watch the match but yet it is colloid midterm the very next day. So I decided to go for the highlight.
Although my instinct said it is not right. Because F.torres have back to action.
Hopefully MU will win and get the EPL title. Pray hard for Wayne Rooney and Antonio Valencia. Gambateh.
Honestly, I desperate to watch the match but yet it is colloid midterm the very next day. So I decided to go for the highlight.
Although my instinct said it is not right. Because F.torres have back to action.
Hopefully MU will win and get the EPL title. Pray hard for Wayne Rooney and Antonio Valencia. Gambateh.
Wednesday, March 17, 2010
high or low power distance in UTAR??
I have been being observing for few semester that in utar, high power distance should be the culture.
i'm aware that talking about result seems forbidden in my society.
i'm aware that talking about result seems forbidden in my society.
Tuesday, March 16, 2010
stress is nothing
talking about stress, normally i would identify it as a turning point or stage of what I wish to achieve or do. Of course, target must be realistic according to own ability, as u can see I'm a range of B+ student meaning that getting B+ is what i should do. Anything more than that is a gift.
how to deal with stress? actually i don deal with it but I ignored it, but doesn't mean that i will become psycho one day, no. after the stress level accumulated to the max point, I will break down, and i will have a very good sleep and ignore everything. Is very important to reach the max point of stress, it meaning that you train yourself to accept stress, increasing your capacity.
Try to think about the day you assume doing something is very stressful, think now. SEE, you have done it, you can handle it. You grow right?
ignore all the problem and start charge. better late than never.
i'm positive thinking ya? haha.
how to deal with stress? actually i don deal with it but I ignored it, but doesn't mean that i will become psycho one day, no. after the stress level accumulated to the max point, I will break down, and i will have a very good sleep and ignore everything. Is very important to reach the max point of stress, it meaning that you train yourself to accept stress, increasing your capacity.
Try to think about the day you assume doing something is very stressful, think now. SEE, you have done it, you can handle it. You grow right?
ignore all the problem and start charge. better late than never.
i'm positive thinking ya? haha.
perception formation
within the IPC chapters, got one section was call perception formation. It somehow remind me that I have research on the study method article wrote by a lecturer from Taiwan, not much but 20++ pages printed copy with 100% mandarin words. it is eye torturing article because the font are small and a lot in a page, but yet, i learned a lot from it.
Same concept dealing with perception formation; perception formation is about the impression that you have made to others, and it give u a picture according to your own experience.
so it is same thing to what we have done. When during exam, we recalled things not from words but from a picture. So meaning that, u see picture of your note instead of words.
so conclusion is, your brain absorb picture first, understanding come later. Again, it shows that pre-study is very important.
Same concept dealing with perception formation; perception formation is about the impression that you have made to others, and it give u a picture according to your own experience.
so it is same thing to what we have done. When during exam, we recalled things not from words but from a picture. So meaning that, u see picture of your note instead of words.
so conclusion is, your brain absorb picture first, understanding come later. Again, it shows that pre-study is very important.
Saturday, March 13, 2010
strength
"Strength does not come from winning
Your struggles develop your strength.
When you go through hardship
and decide not to surrender,
that is strength."
Your struggles develop your strength.
When you go through hardship
and decide not to surrender,
that is strength."
Thursday, March 4, 2010
一把尺
There is a ruler in everyone heart, everyone does. You easily observed it through when there is a lot of empty space in Pendidikan Moral lecture hall. The scale and length of this ruler determine life’s direction; that is what I trust.
Reporting today performance, directly read from note, no memorization, no outstanding joker stands = present (0.1) lol… is worrying me, but not too much… most of the courses in this semester I already finished study, the best coverage is properties of organic compounds, I know all what dr.sim is talking and going to talk next. NOTHING RELATED TO INTELLIGENT, JUST I WILLING TO SACRIFICE MY WHOLE 3 MONTHS TIME FOR RESCUE MY ACADEMIC STATUS.
Talking about clever, and strong, I feel Dr.Sim is the one I respect the most. Sorry not the one teaching metal, he is making me even more confused by just asking what is a simple term talk about.
If that is someday I try choosing my supervisor, I think I will choose Dr.Sim. Although with my status, I sure kena k kao kao. Hahaha!
I found that my entire group members are worried about the presentation. Don’t worry, as long as effort is there, life won’t be difficult. But if u wants distinction, pray more. Hahaha!
Reporting today performance, directly read from note, no memorization, no outstanding joker stands = present (0.1) lol… is worrying me, but not too much… most of the courses in this semester I already finished study, the best coverage is properties of organic compounds, I know all what dr.sim is talking and going to talk next. NOTHING RELATED TO INTELLIGENT, JUST I WILLING TO SACRIFICE MY WHOLE 3 MONTHS TIME FOR RESCUE MY ACADEMIC STATUS.
Talking about clever, and strong, I feel Dr.Sim is the one I respect the most. Sorry not the one teaching metal, he is making me even more confused by just asking what is a simple term talk about.
If that is someday I try choosing my supervisor, I think I will choose Dr.Sim. Although with my status, I sure kena k kao kao. Hahaha!
I found that my entire group members are worried about the presentation. Don’t worry, as long as effort is there, life won’t be difficult. But if u wants distinction, pray more. Hahaha!
Saturday, February 27, 2010
Friday, February 26, 2010
Ball of glory
somehow i feel that life is destined. Work hard or not does not guarantee a good yield, perhaps, rules of the world. e.g. got one species of people need not put any hard work but still able, and others are able as well but with working day and night. It is not you think you can do it, you will achieve it, it is fate or destined by GOD, and I feel that is HIS will by telling u "wait" or "no", and ya, I'm not an advanced in christian neither pro in bible study, but i feel so.
still, working hard is necessary, is responsibility or necessity. And my girlfriend say i'm robot after that. hahaa!
Haih, but i still hoping HE allowed my wish.
My wish is pro in study and pro in games, e.g. football. YO!
I feel I must have confident to dribble more. I'm such chicken on dribbling ball...
still, working hard is necessary, is responsibility or necessity. And my girlfriend say i'm robot after that. hahaa!
Haih, but i still hoping HE allowed my wish.
My wish is pro in study and pro in games, e.g. football. YO!
I feel I must have confident to dribble more. I'm such chicken on dribbling ball...
Thursday, February 25, 2010
low self-esteem
第一次用华文写。最近心很冷，做什么都不起劲。
我尝试着分析自己， 基本上我什么都会，化学，数学，运动，踢球， 但就是没有一个是特出的。所以就像人家说的：know everything but master no thing
不想一直都是半天调级的人。。什么都中等的平凡人。。
我找不到我的存在感。。。
我尝试着分析自己， 基本上我什么都会，化学，数学，运动，踢球， 但就是没有一个是特出的。所以就像人家说的：know everything but master no thing
不想一直都是半天调级的人。。什么都中等的平凡人。。
我找不到我的存在感。。。
Sunday, February 21, 2010
desperate is meaningless
respect and rejoice the oldies. I always bear this in mind. I don protest and don like argue with oldies. All the things that i can do is just keep in heart or what i can do is let it out with tears.
I'm not a clever student. I soon forget what had teach just after a week or weeks. one that i wish to enhance my study style. But somehow is not supported by people around. is very hard to work this way. all the plan i couldn't make it. I have wasted the whole holidays efforts.
life... all i can thanks is that i'm living, only.
I'm not a clever student. I soon forget what had teach just after a week or weeks. one that i wish to enhance my study style. But somehow is not supported by people around. is very hard to work this way. all the plan i couldn't make it. I have wasted the whole holidays efforts.
life... all i can thanks is that i'm living, only.
Thursday, February 18, 2010
lucky me?
Met old friends yesterday at old town queensbay, it doesn't seem like a gathering or rather meeting, because many people are aeroplaning us. GG...
so next trip, we decided to go for a good place, like favorite seafood center like tambun, and well it going to be decided later. haha!
I have conversation to a frens which also taking chemistry in USM. It make me feel that luckyly i never got chance to join usm... = = racial discrimination and also those lecturer are sucks than utar (according to what i heard). it make me feel so fortunate now by joining Utar. = =
after the conversation, i somehow feel that local uni life are much tougher than privates, I should appreciate and work harder. well talking about first class graduate, personally, i also feel that is tough or nearly impossible to me. But i'm still thinking whether i should repeat certain subject or not. If really wished to joined first class, i have to at least 3.8 for this semester or 3.65 for the following 3 semester, but somehow i feel this semester will be easier compare to the rest.... god please bless me.
so next trip, we decided to go for a good place, like favorite seafood center like tambun, and well it going to be decided later. haha!
I have conversation to a frens which also taking chemistry in USM. It make me feel that luckyly i never got chance to join usm... = = racial discrimination and also those lecturer are sucks than utar (according to what i heard). it make me feel so fortunate now by joining Utar. = =
after the conversation, i somehow feel that local uni life are much tougher than privates, I should appreciate and work harder. well talking about first class graduate, personally, i also feel that is tough or nearly impossible to me. But i'm still thinking whether i should repeat certain subject or not. If really wished to joined first class, i have to at least 3.8 for this semester or 3.65 for the following 3 semester, but somehow i feel this semester will be easier compare to the rest.... god please bless me.
Wednesday, February 17, 2010
I just wanna be what i am
ya, right, I'm not a pianist, not a fish with a lot of money, don't have status among the relative, but can u all at least respond to my greeting, U monetary minded nerds. and i don want pressure on industry work, earn so much money can eat meh.
i want doing something related to academic. mt first choice is be a lecturer.
Tuesday, February 16, 2010
night at TGV sp
at last, i watched the movie yesterday with alex. haha! very funny and yet very touching at some of the movie part.
I feel that sometime living in a small village are better than any big city. of course, im neew citizen at BM now, and i feel people here are much better than big city kids or adults. friendly. Haih, shame me and other big city people.
some i feel that me and ah xian in the movie are quite alike, and his character teach me never choose 半途而废.
well, i have learn. thx god. amen.
Sunday, February 14, 2010
大日子woohoo!
nah... kinda waste that i miss the movie, but somehow i plan to watch it tomorrow night at s.p. there. haha.
by the way, happy chinese year guys.
keep roaring roaring roaring, keep roaring roaring roaring~~
Saturday, February 13, 2010
celcomy!!
currently using celcom broadband at home with the youth pack promotion, i only need to pay 50 a month and i can bring it everywhere.
It is obviously not as good as streamyx in term of speed, but with my hometown area HSDPA or 3.5G, it is good enough for me for doing university works. the speed is same and can up to 400kbps, well that is what we used at home with fixed line, that why i always say that, with 1mb or 2 mb package, the speed is the same, the main different is just the capacity.
haih, even chinese new year also need to work. pity guys. But it is fortunate enough for my boring CNY because i don plan to visit any relative house. well, i just don like people asking me this and that, or comparing... bored.
Friday, February 12, 2010
I'm sorry
today is my first year anniversary with Joanne. I did a cake yesterday and let her eat today, the look was not nice because it cracked. haih, very disappointed actually but she still so lovely and say never mind. sorry that i couldn't put "i love u" on the cake for u and can't accompany you celebrate the first year and valentine days.
frog in UTAR
I somehow noticed what i had grown. first thing, during my secondary school. i don have purpose or direction of life, i simply study what i like. that why my math was so lame. But now i study what i have to. until now, overall still ok.
talk about PHD. PHD of course is very hard to achieve, but it is not impossible.
So when someone lanci to you with his PHD level, show him the lame finger. because what, he is a frog live under a well, living in his own world.
talk about PHD. PHD of course is very hard to achieve, but it is not impossible.
So when someone lanci to you with his PHD level, show him the lame finger. because what, he is a frog live under a well, living in his own world.
Thursday, February 11, 2010
it was my very first time driving on a highway (consider it as highway because it is the old road heading to KL) at 4am morning because of a match, arsenal(H)vs liverpool(A),1-0, with several frens and fren's fren.
I was not able to wake up because my new alarm clock was not loud enough, but lucky that received call from weng seng.
there was a lot of people at ghanny although it is four at the morning.
the match was not a nice match because both team attack are so lame. Febregas was totally out of sense. pity him.
Sunday, February 7, 2010
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Saturday, February 6, 2010
Is About Time to TELL yourself trying my best
i was inspired to write this when i'm telling joanne (my gf) be more concentrate on the study and don't always facebook.
Sometime, we misunderstand the words of trying my best. It is often mis-use when the time you start yours study the day before exam or comforting yourself by any unpreparation.
trying your best is mean that you trying your best to concentrate on your works (any works) and when u lose your focus, don ever blame yourself or giving up, what you need is just back to the focus.
I used to blame myself last time but not anymore now after i have study a journal from a taiwan lecturer talk about study skill during my holiday. Well in IPC, this behavior is name as SELF-DESTRUCTIVE BEHAVIOR on chapter 3. Well, horrible right?
well talk about me now, for the past 3 semester i was considered very agressive on study or forcing myself to read and read and read. after all it proved not working to me. after that, I found out quite study method do really help me a lot which also come from that journal, but i cant tell you how well it works cause i still in experimental state.
if you want study well, fragmentize your time and your works and of course, avoid accumulating workload.
next, i want to share what is the meaning of focus. Normally, when we doing a thing, study, report or whatever things, some thought will suddenly come into your mind, (like today pps got wat news movie? facebook dono got wat news d? Want to search more detail of this topic in internet.) please write it on a piece of paper and stay focus on your works. after finished everything, only do what ever is written down. I PROVED THIS WORK, save times and stay focus.
well, by sharing this, i hope everyone will inspired by changing your study style. especially the one i love. ya is you, joanne.
Sometime, we misunderstand the words of trying my best. It is often mis-use when the time you start yours study the day before exam or comforting yourself by any unpreparation.
trying your best is mean that you trying your best to concentrate on your works (any works) and when u lose your focus, don ever blame yourself or giving up, what you need is just back to the focus.
I used to blame myself last time but not anymore now after i have study a journal from a taiwan lecturer talk about study skill during my holiday. Well in IPC, this behavior is name as SELF-DESTRUCTIVE BEHAVIOR on chapter 3. Well, horrible right?
well talk about me now, for the past 3 semester i was considered very agressive on study or forcing myself to read and read and read. after all it proved not working to me. after that, I found out quite study method do really help me a lot which also come from that journal, but i cant tell you how well it works cause i still in experimental state.
if you want study well, fragmentize your time and your works and of course, avoid accumulating workload.
next, i want to share what is the meaning of focus. Normally, when we doing a thing, study, report or whatever things, some thought will suddenly come into your mind, (like today pps got wat news movie? facebook dono got wat news d? Want to search more detail of this topic in internet.) please write it on a piece of paper and stay focus on your works. after finished everything, only do what ever is written down. I PROVED THIS WORK, save times and stay focus.
well, by sharing this, i hope everyone will inspired by changing your study style. especially the one i love. ya is you, joanne.
Friday, February 5, 2010
friends
Friends are hidden pearl. Many people did not pay attention to them and yet the most regretful things to them.
be friends? be shared.
be friends? Don keep in heart.
be friends? differentiate the works and privates well
be friends? lets go yam cha la...
Seem is a test for me to test my friendship between people, ya, i hope nothing had changed. still friend.
be friends? be shared.
be friends? Don keep in heart.
be friends? differentiate the works and privates well
be friends? lets go yam cha la...
Seem is a test for me to test my friendship between people, ya, i hope nothing had changed. still friend.
Wednesday, February 3, 2010
is humble the one?
as i read from a friends post talking about silent is gold, is true that silent is gold. keep silent, keep silent and keep silent. misunderstand, misunderstand and more misunderstand. after a long silent period, u begin to talk, and it causes more misunderstand. Target gone, frens gone and all also gone.
hearts bitter cause have to make this move, ya, all the things is under my responsibility. I'm such a failure person. Don want to make the things worst is my only choice.
hearts bitter cause have to make this move, ya, all the things is under my responsibility. I'm such a failure person. Don want to make the things worst is my only choice.
a lame joke
write what ever u like on your blog. go wat ever you have choose, telling people your choice also an responsibility, don want to toxified more to my blog. hey ya!
Sunday, January 31, 2010
inherited spaghetti
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just learned a simple carbonara spaghetti yesterday and try it today, plus something add-on. instead of using water to campur it, i used the half can of milk and also 2 table spoon of campbell mushroom soup to enhance the flavor. crash some black pepper bring from sarawak and put it into the source. by the way, i put some white pepper on the spaghetti before mix with the source, and it smell really nice... I love the dish today.
Friday, January 29, 2010
GOD's equation
today my lecturer had answer a crucial question that i couldn't answer for the past few years. Usually we will say that, there is no god in this world and science was the proof. In a forum, a blogger commented a religion movie that there is no god in this world and after that he say, Science create a lot of things, from as small as a molecule to a rocket; but, god can create what?
well, honestly this guy is bullshitting, but still i couldn't answer his question.
today i have receive the answer. ahaha!
"scientist don create things, they just discover the things god create and they maximize god's equation and utilized it."
simple verse that have make me grow. SO next time i can shot back those stupid fellow.
well, honestly this guy is bullshitting, but still i couldn't answer his question.
today i have receive the answer. ahaha!
"scientist don create things, they just discover the things god create and they maximize god's equation and utilized it."
simple verse that have make me grow. SO next time i can shot back those stupid fellow.
A friend had changed
recently, our conversation is always the same and it is about a friend. this guy have pak tor recently and seem kena kao kao by his girlfriend, that why when we are here in restaurant, cafe or anywhere. He is so emo or moody, and yet he din talk much about hiself. Well, it is sad that seeing a person laughing always have become so quiet. We all know and we do concern it (that why we talk a lot about this).
GG... should i honestly to comment it or keep it?
well maybe just this
Something that you think or feel that you need it, but actually you don.
something it is not happy, wont last for long.
sorry for disturbing you if u feel annoying when u read this.
GG... should i honestly to comment it or keep it?
well maybe just this
Something that you think or feel that you need it, but actually you don.
something it is not happy, wont last for long.
sorry for disturbing you if u feel annoying when u read this.
Tuesday, January 26, 2010
To do list
nah... writing this while waiting for my mee cooked. This is my to do list but obviously i have fail to achieve some target on this few day.
to do list,
1) shut my month off.
2) don't be bossy or so ke poh
3) study hard and concentrate on class without sleeping(i slept today.)
4) don so annoying by acting like joker and speak loudly or noisy.
5) anti-clan or without prejudices. (but is hard to survive neutrally, when u mix some ppl, another clan will isolate you. best way, keep the month shut.)
6) throw jealousy away.
7) no show off and egoism.
middle age life start... that is not fun in UTAR.
to do list,
1) shut my month off.
2) don't be bossy or so ke poh
3) study hard and concentrate on class without sleeping(i slept today.)
4) don so annoying by acting like joker and speak loudly or noisy.
5) anti-clan or without prejudices. (but is hard to survive neutrally, when u mix some ppl, another clan will isolate you. best way, keep the month shut.)
6) throw jealousy away.
7) no show off and egoism.
middle age life start... that is not fun in UTAR.
Friday, January 22, 2010
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freshly-into the blogspot
lately, i've join blogspot. is a very good and "fast" compare to myspace. so eventually, i have throw myspace away (temporary) from my sight.
finish report, a boring day, joanne is not around and i'm reading people's blog post.
raised a question, treating a friend should be high and deep in volume of toleration, people call it as high in EQ. On another point of view, is this called two face?
well, i don really like to argue with friends, if they really stay hard on their stand, normally i will say "ok lo..." to prevent further argument or i just lazy to choi them... of course I'm conscious that someone around still using me to do this and that. well, as a friend, helping is a duty. "They just need help" lying to myself to enable me do it sincerly (two face).
I don like people stand in front of my way, and obviously i don't like what the moral lecturer had mention "young people are not conscious about responsibility". It does hurt my ear (ego) " don look down on me"
soon there will be a democratic discussion; i shall prepare tomorrow.
My english is lame....
Honestly, I don like books or study but I need to do so for academic. if there is a motivator that vision to get high marks in academic performance.
I don like to run, go gym, lift weight, but it is necessary because for maintain good shape or health.
I like games like ping pong, football, badminton and lots of games. notice the common area? is a game. A matter of fun and a matter of win and lose.
kinda fun right? when u lose u sad, go into gym train day and night, fighting for revenge. when u win u happy. Is full of emotion. of course, I just like to have fun on scoring people net. haha!
well, should i look everything as a competition? hmm.... i should think about this.
finish report, a boring day, joanne is not around and i'm reading people's blog post.
raised a question, treating a friend should be high and deep in volume of toleration, people call it as high in EQ. On another point of view, is this called two face?
well, i don really like to argue with friends, if they really stay hard on their stand, normally i will say "ok lo..." to prevent further argument or i just lazy to choi them... of course I'm conscious that someone around still using me to do this and that. well, as a friend, helping is a duty. "They just need help" lying to myself to enable me do it sincerly (two face).
I don like people stand in front of my way, and obviously i don't like what the moral lecturer had mention "young people are not conscious about responsibility". It does hurt my ear (ego) " don look down on me"
soon there will be a democratic discussion; i shall prepare tomorrow.
My english is lame....
Honestly, I don like books or study but I need to do so for academic. if there is a motivator that vision to get high marks in academic performance.
I don like to run, go gym, lift weight, but it is necessary because for maintain good shape or health.
I like games like ping pong, football, badminton and lots of games. notice the common area? is a game. A matter of fun and a matter of win and lose.
kinda fun right? when u lose u sad, go into gym train day and night, fighting for revenge. when u win u happy. Is full of emotion. of course, I just like to have fun on scoring people net. haha!
well, should i look everything as a competition? hmm.... i should think about this.
Sunday, January 17, 2010
Glory China and U.S.
The world is sick, I just hate had happen on earth. Series of natural disaster become more serious than ever; the strength of hurricane, blizzard snow and storm like flood, still the human kind still not realize the world is sick, the green need to be encourage. Chemicals, smog and disease are everywhere. Still the leaders of the nations are just concerning their own country benefit. Really wait for the end of the day.
I just heard that if the arctic and Antarctic completely melted, the world will go into second ice age.
I just heard that if the arctic and Antarctic completely melted, the world will go into second ice age.
sometime i'm stubborn
My stubborn causing me somehow don’t agree to what my parents said. Maybe I’m childish or maybe I think too big. Is that so hard to buying a thing with cash? Banks are blood sucking organization that ever created by greedy humankind. I don’t believe that I can buy a house with cash. I believe in my ability. But do I have ability? I would not know forever, because I kind of man that not satisfied on myself, that the reason my face so sour for. Well, bad habit.
I have good chance, or maybe a chance to achieve a small step in my future, but so reluctant to do so. I so fragile that can’t even take a bit hardship. Trying to imagine that many persons around me couldn’t do so, but still my performance is so unstable. I always questioning my ways, is that a correct way. Well I hope for answer.
I have good chance, or maybe a chance to achieve a small step in my future, but so reluctant to do so. I so fragile that can’t even take a bit hardship. Trying to imagine that many persons around me couldn’t do so, but still my performance is so unstable. I always questioning my ways, is that a correct way. Well I hope for answer.
YO! is christmas!
Nights were long; days were hot, in an empty room wake up and sleep again. Day by day doing the same things, even I still remember the situation that I just wake up this morning. What a Christmas, BORED. Locking myself in room because I don’t feel like to talk to anyone else. No money means no freedom, kind of prison living when during holidays. Come on, I need move my ass and head. Kind of rusting my body now. I’m damnly frustrated now! Asking that still got how many days that I have to living like this!
There is a warehouse sale for branded things in during 23 to 3 of January. How much I wish that I could be there buying my loving things. Knock. Knock. My brain say come on get out from it. Yeah, you are right, asking about money and asking for things is damn suck. People will use a lot stupid reason to pursuing you. Totally shit! I’m out of it. Don’t me even more frustrated.
Merry Christmas
There is a warehouse sale for branded things in during 23 to 3 of January. How much I wish that I could be there buying my loving things. Knock. Knock. My brain say come on get out from it. Yeah, you are right, asking about money and asking for things is damn suck. People will use a lot stupid reason to pursuing you. Totally shit! I’m out of it. Don’t me even more frustrated.
Merry Christmas
hardship shall not be ignored
The further we have grown up, more things that we wish to obtain. As I personally wish to get the achievement in academic. But the target is become harder and harder that I could achieve it. I feel helpless and worthless. It is hard but still I struggle to get it. I feel struggle, mentally loneliness and tired.
I know what should be the right feeling of obtaining the president list; you have enormous determination and efforts. Guess I don’t have that kind of determination. When I come to this point, I feel really respect shian hoi. She is an average student, but she is very determined and work day and night, and she have great achievement in her education.
How much that I wish I could as determine as her or even more.
I feel empty and heart was bitter. Is it this my destiny? Is it my destiny that could not break it? I work hard but my pressure barrel is too shallow that I couldn’t follow up my plan. My plan is good, it really assure me to get better. But I just couldn’t take it for long period.
Dear god, show me the way that I can both win, in mentally and also achievement. Amen.
I know what should be the right feeling of obtaining the president list; you have enormous determination and efforts. Guess I don’t have that kind of determination. When I come to this point, I feel really respect shian hoi. She is an average student, but she is very determined and work day and night, and she have great achievement in her education.
How much that I wish I could as determine as her or even more.
I feel empty and heart was bitter. Is it this my destiny? Is it my destiny that could not break it? I work hard but my pressure barrel is too shallow that I couldn’t follow up my plan. My plan is good, it really assure me to get better. But I just couldn’t take it for long period.
Dear god, show me the way that I can both win, in mentally and also achievement. Amen.
Great Memorable Place
Finally after 10 years time, I have move to the new house located at BM. A better environment but of course, I miss my birth place. I have take a few picture and scenery that first glance that I saw when I wake up, the light on the wall, view through the window and noise and voice from traffic and neighbors. It just reminds me that I forgot to say goodbye to this old place. =.=
This old house shared 40 years memory of my dad and 21 years memory of mine. It kept its kampong style for 40 years although all the houses around him being develop to a modern area. But still it keeps its 60th style. Glory old house. Hehee.
A lot of mosquito and very hot when afternoon, but still I few appreciate it still strong enough to shelters me all the times. Nothing special that I can share further. I miss all the view and scenery around my house. Those good foods and night market. It is hard to say I will back because those Penang land are getting expensive annually. Still, I wish I could get back one day, seeing my birth place and childhood memories every morning through the window.
Bye, old house. Thanks.
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