Friday, September 3, 2010
Self that i know
when starting to run, my angle feel pain and I was slow down and stand there for a while but i still continue to run.
After the pain is off, I still can't get it and I realized that is nothing more and I'm still the ordinary person.
throughout these years, one important message I have realized was I'm not a person who born with special talent and given a hidden potential in certain area. No, I'm not one of them.
throughout these years, I fight for what I got and I build from nothing but zero.
It happen to my study as well, I required long period of time to adapt myself to that particular area. Is a relatively long lag time. yeah, that is me.
I have no talent on anything, even i tried to involved in it for a long time and it always stop at certain degree of standard, e.g. at 60-70% and it stop. It hardly for me to perform good and it always depends on luck.
For sure I'll wonder, how much I wish to be "that" particular person. I'm not like few of my secondary school friend that their "brain nerve system" is connected very very well. They can take something new very fast and i would never like my best friend can read a book seven times before an exam. No, I'm not one of them.
sometime it make me feel like, who am i and what the world need me for. But from Christian view, I'm unique in what i'm.
I'm a creation, my life and right to live here is a gift. Yet why i'm not satisfying with what I'm.
I got a good gf, meaning she very very good to me.
The most important objectives or wish to me is, I dont hope to be a burden for anyone in my life.
I hope I got that ability for people lying on me safely.
a simple wish, and dear lord, sorry for being unsatisfying for what I'm
for me, I will accept what I'm.
After the pain is off, I still can't get it and I realized that is nothing more and I'm still the ordinary person.
throughout these years, one important message I have realized was I'm not a person who born with special talent and given a hidden potential in certain area. No, I'm not one of them.
throughout these years, I fight for what I got and I build from nothing but zero.
It happen to my study as well, I required long period of time to adapt myself to that particular area. Is a relatively long lag time. yeah, that is me.
I have no talent on anything, even i tried to involved in it for a long time and it always stop at certain degree of standard, e.g. at 60-70% and it stop. It hardly for me to perform good and it always depends on luck.
For sure I'll wonder, how much I wish to be "that" particular person. I'm not like few of my secondary school friend that their "brain nerve system" is connected very very well. They can take something new very fast and i would never like my best friend can read a book seven times before an exam. No, I'm not one of them.
sometime it make me feel like, who am i and what the world need me for. But from Christian view, I'm unique in what i'm.
I'm a creation, my life and right to live here is a gift. Yet why i'm not satisfying with what I'm.
I got a good gf, meaning she very very good to me.
The most important objectives or wish to me is, I dont hope to be a burden for anyone in my life.
I hope I got that ability for people lying on me safely.
a simple wish, and dear lord, sorry for being unsatisfying for what I'm
for me, I will accept what I'm.
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