finally dare to dribble yesterday night.. wakakaka. not bad my performance was. great.
hahahha!
AL iksan opening today. let hunt for new shoes!

Ball of glory

somehow i feel that life is destined. Work hard or not does not guarantee a good yield, perhaps, rules of the world. e.g. got one species of people need not put any hard work but still able, and others are able as well but with working day and night. It is not you think you can do it, you will achieve it, it is fate or destined by GOD, and I feel that is HIS will by telling u "wait" or "no", and ya, I'm not an advanced in christian neither pro in bible study, but i feel so.

still, working hard is necessary, is responsibility or necessity. And my girlfriend say i'm robot after that. hahaa!

Haih, but i still hoping HE allowed my wish.
My wish is pro in study and pro in games, e.g. football. YO!
I feel I must have confident to dribble more. I'm such chicken on dribbling ball...

low self-esteem

第一次用华文写。最近心很冷，做什么都不起劲。
我尝试着分析自己， 基本上我什么都会，化学，数学，运动，踢球， 但就是没有一个是特出的。所以就像人家说的：know everything but master no thing
不想一直都是半天调级的人。。什么都中等的平凡人。。
我找不到我的存在感。。。

desperate is meaningless

respect and rejoice the oldies. I always bear this in mind. I don protest and don like argue with oldies. All the things that i can do is just keep in heart or what i can do is let it out with tears.

I'm not a clever student. I soon forget what had teach just after a week or weeks. one that i wish to enhance my study style. But somehow is not supported by people around. is very hard to work this way. all the plan i couldn't make it. I have wasted the whole holidays efforts.

life... all i can thanks is that i'm living, only.

lucky me?

Met old friends yesterday at old town queensbay, it doesn't seem like a gathering or rather meeting, because many people are aeroplaning us. GG...
so next trip, we decided to go for a good place, like favorite seafood center like tambun, and well it going to be decided later. haha!

I have conversation to a frens which also taking chemistry in USM. It make me feel that luckyly i never got chance to join usm... = = racial discrimination and also those lecturer are sucks than utar (according to what i heard). it make me feel so fortunate now by joining Utar. = =

after the conversation, i somehow feel that local uni life are much tougher than privates, I should appreciate and work harder. well talking about first class graduate, personally, i also feel that is tough or nearly impossible to me. But i'm still thinking whether i should repeat certain subject or not. If really wished to joined first class, i have to at least 3.8 for this semester or 3.65 for the following 3 semester, but somehow i feel this semester will be easier compare to the rest.... god please bless me.

I just wanna be what i am

ya, right, I'm not a pianist, not a fish with a lot of money, don't have status among the relative, but can u all at least respond to my greeting, U monetary minded nerds. and i don want pressure on industry work, earn so much money can eat meh.
i want doing something related to academic. mt first choice is be a lecturer.

night at TGV sp

at last, i watched the movie yesterday with alex. haha! very funny and yet very touching at some of the movie part.
I feel that sometime living in a small village are better than any big city. of course, im neew citizen at BM now, and i feel people here are much better than big city kids or adults. friendly. Haih, shame me and other big city people.
some i feel that me and ah xian in the movie are quite alike, and his character teach me never choose 半途而废.
well, i have learn. thx god. amen.

大日子woohoo!

nah... kinda waste that i miss the movie, but somehow i plan to watch it tomorrow night at s.p. there. haha.

by the way, happy chinese year guys.
keep roaring roaring roaring, keep roaring roaring roaring~~

celcomy!!

currently using celcom broadband at home with the youth pack promotion, i only need to pay 50 a month and i can bring it everywhere.

It is obviously not as good as streamyx in term of speed, but with my hometown area HSDPA or 3.5G, it is good enough for me for doing university works. the speed is same and can up to 400kbps, well that is what we used at home with fixed line, that why i always say that, with 1mb or 2 mb package, the speed is the same, the main different is just the capacity.

haih, even chinese new year also need to work. pity guys. But it is fortunate enough for my boring CNY because i don plan to visit any relative house. well, i just don like people asking me this and that, or comparing... bored.

I'm sorry

today is my first year anniversary with Joanne. I did a cake yesterday and let her eat today, the look was not nice because it cracked. haih, very disappointed actually but she still so lovely and say never mind. sorry that i couldn't put "i love u" on the cake for u and can't accompany you celebrate the first year and valentine days.

frog in UTAR

I somehow noticed what i had grown. first thing, during my secondary school. i don have purpose or direction of life, i simply study what i like. that why my math was so lame. But now i study what i have to. until now, overall still ok.

talk about PHD. PHD of course is very hard to achieve, but it is not impossible.
So when someone lanci to you with his PHD level, show him the lame finger. because what, he is a frog live under a well, living in his own world.

it was my very first time driving on a highway (consider it as highway because it is the old road heading to KL) at 4am morning because of a match, arsenal(H)vs liverpool(A),1-0, with several frens and fren's fren.
I was not able to wake up because my new alarm clock was not loud enough, but lucky that received call from weng seng.
there was a lot of people at ghanny although it is four at the morning.


the match was not a nice match because both team attack are so lame. Febregas was totally out of sense. pity him.

all my little kitty

 
 
 
 

those cat that have fate with me once. hehee. nice to meet u guys.

Is About Time to TELL yourself trying my best

i was inspired to write this when i'm telling joanne (my gf) be more concentrate on the study and don't always facebook.

Sometime, we misunderstand the words of trying my best. It is often mis-use when the time you start yours study the day before exam or comforting yourself by any unpreparation.

trying your best is mean that you trying your best to concentrate on your works (any works) and when u lose your focus, don ever blame yourself or giving up, what you need is just back to the focus.
I used to blame myself last time but not anymore now after i have study a journal from a taiwan lecturer talk about study skill during my holiday. Well in IPC, this behavior is name as SELF-DESTRUCTIVE BEHAVIOR on chapter 3. Well, horrible right?


well talk about me now, for the past 3 semester i was considered very agressive on study or forcing myself to read and read and read. after all it proved not working to me. after that, I found out quite study method do really help me a lot which also come from that journal, but i cant tell you how well it works cause i still in experimental state.

if you want study well, fragmentize your time and your works and of course, avoid accumulating workload.

next, i want to share what is the meaning of focus. Normally, when we doing a thing, study, report or whatever things, some thought will suddenly come into your mind, (like today pps got wat news movie? facebook dono got wat news d? Want to search more detail of this topic in internet.) please write it on a piece of paper and stay focus on your works. after finished everything, only do what ever is written down. I PROVED THIS WORK, save times and stay focus.

well, by sharing this, i hope everyone will inspired by changing your study style. especially the one i love. ya is you, joanne.

friends

Friends are hidden pearl. Many people did not pay attention to them and yet the most regretful things to them.

be friends? be shared.

be friends? Don keep in heart.

be friends? differentiate the works and privates well

be friends? lets go yam cha la...

Seem is a test for me to test my friendship between people, ya, i hope nothing had changed. still friend.

is humble the one?

as i read from a friends post talking about silent is gold, is true that silent is gold. keep silent, keep silent and keep silent. misunderstand, misunderstand and more misunderstand. after a long silent period, u begin to talk, and it causes more misunderstand. Target gone, frens gone and all also gone.

hearts bitter cause have to make this move, ya, all the things is under my responsibility. I'm such a failure person. Don want to make the things worst is my only choice.

a lame joke

write what ever u like on your blog. go wat ever you have choose, telling people your choice also an responsibility, don want to toxified more to my blog. hey ya!