One of colleague post mentioned about TOO MUCH TARGET, which I was striked and awared I got myself wrong so far due to too much target in life.
Embracing all the thing aren't realistic and causing me stepping on the same ground after years.
Wiping out those unimportant wish probably make me feel lighter.
Treat this as a reminder to myself.
Only 2 wish I will going to achieve in this few years.
1) brushed out the rusted, renew my body to the certain fitness level. I guess my only hobby embraced in the football. Not really targetting muscular body but at least enable me to shine on the field for the coming futsal tournament.
2) Time, which is the most important asset that we could ever have. Where initial phase, time was changing to money and money makes money. Increase the value of my time i meant.
Promising myself no matter how hard will be the coming education, Im going to finish it.
I'm a perserverance and fundamentalist.
Sunday, August 21, 2011
Saturday, July 9, 2011
Saturday, June 11, 2011
I'm shitting here, and it make me feel good. who else no need toilet?
Friend, how awesome the words is, build by 6 letters and determines a person's life, as a guidance; a two edge sword and perhaps sometime a landmine.
hiding from a peaceful land scenery, you wouldn't know when it will boom you up.
caution is must when you foresee there is a landmine where others don't see what you are seeing.
Friend for me, is an invaluable asset.
An inspiring person, is a best key of success. I found few and they changed my life's direction and perspective. (I wish to meet them earlier during my secondary school- I will be even a better person now. XD)
friends doesn't for humiliating. In fact, humiliating doesn't seem an art of socializing. Nor for you to be very particular on something or some new word taught "dogness".
Perhaps sometime I was, but not anymore for now - I'm not stepping on the same ground, I'm growing.
Bible said: God favors humble and leave those arrogant.
I have kept this as a living principle since I know better about Christ.
That why I'm less interested on facebook now.
hiding from a peaceful land scenery, you wouldn't know when it will boom you up.
caution is must when you foresee there is a landmine where others don't see what you are seeing.
Friend for me, is an invaluable asset.
An inspiring person, is a best key of success. I found few and they changed my life's direction and perspective. (I wish to meet them earlier during my secondary school- I will be even a better person now. XD)
friends doesn't for humiliating. In fact, humiliating doesn't seem an art of socializing. Nor for you to be very particular on something or some new word taught "dogness".
Perhaps sometime I was, but not anymore for now - I'm not stepping on the same ground, I'm growing.
Bible said: God favors humble and leave those arrogant.
I have kept this as a living principle since I know better about Christ.
That why I'm less interested on facebook now.
Monday, June 6, 2011
The Transition State
It took me a while for returning to the blog. Busy isn't the reason behind perhaps life is not receiving much impact recently.
After schooling the next thing is about job of course.
I'm in the middle of decision between career line of choosing a "people" based, sale exec. or "machine" based production line.
of course production is much more easy as dealing with machine is easier than dealing with people.
But, my mom said, he never met a director that is from production line.
which i was totally agreed. No matter how good you are in the biscuit making, you always stand at the place of a biscuit maker.
Meeting people is great part of life. however, for me, i'm too amateur for dealing with people and often negotiation is not part of my skill.
One point should be highlight, every success being have great network with other.
Is tough. Can I do it?
I not yet believe in myself....
After schooling the next thing is about job of course.
I'm in the middle of decision between career line of choosing a "people" based, sale exec. or "machine" based production line.
of course production is much more easy as dealing with machine is easier than dealing with people.
But, my mom said, he never met a director that is from production line.
which i was totally agreed. No matter how good you are in the biscuit making, you always stand at the place of a biscuit maker.
Meeting people is great part of life. however, for me, i'm too amateur for dealing with people and often negotiation is not part of my skill.
One point should be highlight, every success being have great network with other.
Is tough. Can I do it?
I not yet believe in myself....
Saturday, May 28, 2011
late night
lots of deep though.
I felt the emptiness of the noise
I miss the smile, hates, fights during the day
perhaps too free making me feel so.
gimme a chance to busy myself.
I hate uncertainties.
I felt the emptiness of the noise
I miss the smile, hates, fights during the day
perhaps too free making me feel so.
gimme a chance to busy myself.
I hate uncertainties.
Thursday, May 19, 2011
I hate transition stage
In a very bad mood on waiting the invitation of interview.
I not hope for much, neither I can opt for better.
may god bless me...
I not hope for much, neither I can opt for better.
may god bless me...
Thursday, May 12, 2011
Tuesday, April 12, 2011
Do it more Christian-ly
just a simple thought of mine be remind of.
When the bible said, God make man in his image. It thrown a challenge to me, are u respecting every creation of him?
obviously yes, but how far are u keeping you on the rail.
I'm doubt
It may happen that some guys or lecturer that u especially dislike,
well, you just can't fit in either the situation or the way they react to you. God make us such a way? probably not.
So when u dislike a people or something. You will react negatively to it. Some rules of bible may just not applicable or u just don't want to apply it.
then, bible throw me another challenge.
No man can serve two GOD, is either our only GOD or the WORLD.
Are you serving GOD? or serving yourself and putting yourself in other shoes.
It is hard to me choose which one am i going after.
Or i just cannot throw a eraser to the person, nope, u are wrong.
Or throwing the lecture note to the lecturer, what are u fame for, shorties.
for me, my sins is growing everyday. Sins won't shrink back but growing. the best is just not condemn yourself in any sins.
when you choose which is the right thing to do. I call it - the christian way.
you should be prepared for a rocky and stony road to go.
Hope there are more potential christian in my social group.
When u one step in the circle and knowing God, the shaping of you is begin -shaping you into more noble character
When the bible said, God make man in his image. It thrown a challenge to me, are u respecting every creation of him?
obviously yes, but how far are u keeping you on the rail.
I'm doubt
It may happen that some guys or lecturer that u especially dislike,
well, you just can't fit in either the situation or the way they react to you. God make us such a way? probably not.
So when u dislike a people or something. You will react negatively to it. Some rules of bible may just not applicable or u just don't want to apply it.
then, bible throw me another challenge.
No man can serve two GOD, is either our only GOD or the WORLD.
Are you serving GOD? or serving yourself and putting yourself in other shoes.
It is hard to me choose which one am i going after.
Or i just cannot throw a eraser to the person, nope, u are wrong.
Or throwing the lecture note to the lecturer, what are u fame for, shorties.
for me, my sins is growing everyday. Sins won't shrink back but growing. the best is just not condemn yourself in any sins.
when you choose which is the right thing to do. I call it - the christian way.
you should be prepared for a rocky and stony road to go.
Hope there are more potential christian in my social group.
When u one step in the circle and knowing God, the shaping of you is begin -shaping you into more noble character
Wednesday, April 6, 2011
Under the rain, I run
It was very funny day of mine.. well at least I feel a laugh from my heart.
it was 6.30 almost, i running out from library by rushing up the last sentence of polymer study to make a good stop before I drive my car inside the campus.
it was showering, lightly. I walk with a few steps faster than usual day.
when i reach the open area, mean i have to walk under the rain.
the rain was become heavier. I ran to my car, still about a few blocks away the distance. I running, breathing much heavier because of chair-implanted syndrome.
the rain is heavier, I shout: Dear God! don rain yet!! without going through my brain...
I was manage to reach my car without much wetter. I laugh: thanks god. perhaps I'm talking to someone.
Am i laugh for my stupidity?
haha.. I don't know. perhaps i'm laughing because I still believe in god from bottom of my heart.
it was 6.30 almost, i running out from library by rushing up the last sentence of polymer study to make a good stop before I drive my car inside the campus.
it was showering, lightly. I walk with a few steps faster than usual day.
when i reach the open area, mean i have to walk under the rain.
the rain was become heavier. I ran to my car, still about a few blocks away the distance. I running, breathing much heavier because of chair-implanted syndrome.
the rain is heavier, I shout: Dear God! don rain yet!! without going through my brain...
I was manage to reach my car without much wetter. I laugh: thanks god. perhaps I'm talking to someone.
Am i laugh for my stupidity?
haha.. I don't know. perhaps i'm laughing because I still believe in god from bottom of my heart.
Monday, April 4, 2011
the thing i said
probably the first word i said of life is calling my parent when i was one year old. probably.
when i was 5,
i said:
"dad i want follow u go work."
"the kindergarten wasn't a fun place. I hate the kids over there"
"zzz.. alright mom, i awake now... (prepare to go kindergarten)"
when i was 7
"wou, lets play "one leg""
"run! the teacher came!"
"I hate u! i will call my brother to write down your name!" (my bro was 5 years older than me and he is the patrol.)
when i was 10
"you are great! you enter the first class" "i was not lucky enough"
one of my friend said.
when i was 12
"nevermind the other school is not bad either" planning on the going which secondary school other than CLHS.
"wa!" i jumped. "holy crap, u get 5A out of 7!" my fren said.
"i got myself 1st at the science quiz!" i said, my mother say, " =..= are u sure? probably your teacher announce wrongly. hahaha!"
"SEE! how clever your son is!" i told my father while holding a gold trophy in science of standard six. first-ever gold in my life.
"halo... is it ng beng guan family here? ya, your son qualified in CLHS, you need come and sign the document." my parents delighted.
thing doesn't go well in CLHS, probably is was too competitive to me.
when i was 13
"i've nearly fail my maths." said sadly
"i've failed some subjects. Hey monitor! teach me how to study. (he is the great one in my class at that time.)
"wahaha, you also fail?? " i said without worry.
when i was 14
"wo! yu gi oh is great! now u see, u can attack by this than trap against this."
"hey mom! don so annoying!"
"i probably done a lots of sins before i born in this family!" (non-christian at the moment)
thing happened the same until i was 18.
"well i think i can go form six. with this results. probably can..." (i have no idea where to go)
when i was 19
"everyone is so great..." i've arrange into the all elite classmate. i see the different, and the different is so great.
"is too late." i told myself when i get the first result of form 6.
when i was upper 6
"Ms Ooi, how does the chemical formed this way" i keep asking in the class.
"wo. i first time win u in chemistry." i told my friend. yet all other subject was failed.
when i was waiting for the local university reply.
"probably can go to local uni."
"oh my... i fail to achieve any one of it."
when i first come to UTAR.
"is my fault to make myself here." i cried.
"i going to do better as my friends are growing as well in local uni."
when i was 2nd year.
"wa! dean list!" i shout. "congrat!" shian hoi said.
Now i said.
"my life was drama-like. going up the hills, passed down of my life at young time and rising up slowly again... yet, i appreciate what i got. but still i regret that i wasn't able to be part of the elite.
Utar maybe a better surviving place for me.
maybe GOD make me here because he understand me."
you remember what you have said?
when i was 5,
i said:
"dad i want follow u go work."
"the kindergarten wasn't a fun place. I hate the kids over there"
"zzz.. alright mom, i awake now... (prepare to go kindergarten)"
when i was 7
"wou, lets play "one leg""
"run! the teacher came!"
"I hate u! i will call my brother to write down your name!" (my bro was 5 years older than me and he is the patrol.)
when i was 10
"you are great! you enter the first class" "i was not lucky enough"
one of my friend said.
when i was 12
"nevermind the other school is not bad either" planning on the going which secondary school other than CLHS.
"wa!" i jumped. "holy crap, u get 5A out of 7!" my fren said.
"i got myself 1st at the science quiz!" i said, my mother say, " =..= are u sure? probably your teacher announce wrongly. hahaha!"
"SEE! how clever your son is!" i told my father while holding a gold trophy in science of standard six. first-ever gold in my life.
"halo... is it ng beng guan family here? ya, your son qualified in CLHS, you need come and sign the document." my parents delighted.
thing doesn't go well in CLHS, probably is was too competitive to me.
when i was 13
"i've nearly fail my maths." said sadly
"i've failed some subjects. Hey monitor! teach me how to study. (he is the great one in my class at that time.)
"wahaha, you also fail?? " i said without worry.
when i was 14
"wo! yu gi oh is great! now u see, u can attack by this than trap against this."
"hey mom! don so annoying!"
"i probably done a lots of sins before i born in this family!" (non-christian at the moment)
thing happened the same until i was 18.
"well i think i can go form six. with this results. probably can..." (i have no idea where to go)
when i was 19
"everyone is so great..." i've arrange into the all elite classmate. i see the different, and the different is so great.
"is too late." i told myself when i get the first result of form 6.
when i was upper 6
"Ms Ooi, how does the chemical formed this way" i keep asking in the class.
"wo. i first time win u in chemistry." i told my friend. yet all other subject was failed.
when i was waiting for the local university reply.
"probably can go to local uni."
"oh my... i fail to achieve any one of it."
when i first come to UTAR.
"is my fault to make myself here." i cried.
"i going to do better as my friends are growing as well in local uni."
when i was 2nd year.
"wa! dean list!" i shout. "congrat!" shian hoi said.
Now i said.
"my life was drama-like. going up the hills, passed down of my life at young time and rising up slowly again... yet, i appreciate what i got. but still i regret that i wasn't able to be part of the elite.
Utar maybe a better surviving place for me.
maybe GOD make me here because he understand me."
you remember what you have said?
Saturday, March 19, 2011
All You NEED is just hit the first GOAL
When you have achieve a first success, significantly, will bring you to the next stage a lot of easier.
It is very true and you can see it from the surrounding environment.
The positive force of life
"a thought to be remember"
It is very true and you can see it from the surrounding environment.
The positive force of life
"a thought to be remember"
Saturday, March 12, 2011
Greedy me
lots of gadhy stuff i would like to have.
first thing is to have a personal SLR...
nah i don like being picture but i like to take picture.
second thing is to have a tablet pc.
previously is thinking to a netbook... well i have a better choice now since there is Ipad 2 on the market and USD is keep falling. it would be cheaper than i thought. (maybe)
third thing is to say bye bye to my low processing power laptop. looking for greater processing speed desktop. well i could be the last plan because desktop kinda expensive.
first thing is to have a personal SLR...
nah i don like being picture but i like to take picture.
second thing is to have a tablet pc.
previously is thinking to a netbook... well i have a better choice now since there is Ipad 2 on the market and USD is keep falling. it would be cheaper than i thought. (maybe)
third thing is to say bye bye to my low processing power laptop. looking for greater processing speed desktop. well i could be the last plan because desktop kinda expensive.
Saturday, March 5, 2011
mankind turns things insane
the environment are getting more insane
heavy wag from a strong aura of negative power, causing me in the confused situation of which is the truth.
is both hard to be a classmate and human.
indeed selfish become my choice by closing my ear and eyes
Is tiring whenever a conversation starting with the hottest issues.
neither can I or other can do anything without invisible pressure.
lets us pray for safety of classmate, mentally simple and healthy to selected person, and conflict free environment.
heavy wag from a strong aura of negative power, causing me in the confused situation of which is the truth.
is both hard to be a classmate and human.
indeed selfish become my choice by closing my ear and eyes
Is tiring whenever a conversation starting with the hottest issues.
neither can I or other can do anything without invisible pressure.
lets us pray for safety of classmate, mentally simple and healthy to selected person, and conflict free environment.
Friday, February 4, 2011
What have i done today? ehmm.. wake up. brush teeth make coffee, sit in front of the computer and start reading the 2nd chapter of the polymer.
CNY? It almost same for me every year that we don't go visit on the 1st and 2nd day.
well Saturday will have a steamboat den... no so boring life tough. XD
about study. well i found book is lot much easier understand than the lecture note, but this doesn't mean that the lecture note are using.
in fact, lecture note are very core and essential to me to identify what the course need.
book make me lot more easier to imagine and refreshing part will make through reading the lecture note copy.
anyway, a single slide normally comprise of one page normally in the test book.
i wonder if i still read the lecture note 10 times? or i read the book 1 times...
let see how far can i go.
CNY? It almost same for me every year that we don't go visit on the 1st and 2nd day.
well Saturday will have a steamboat den... no so boring life tough. XD
about study. well i found book is lot much easier understand than the lecture note, but this doesn't mean that the lecture note are using.
in fact, lecture note are very core and essential to me to identify what the course need.
book make me lot more easier to imagine and refreshing part will make through reading the lecture note copy.
anyway, a single slide normally comprise of one page normally in the test book.
i wonder if i still read the lecture note 10 times? or i read the book 1 times...
let see how far can i go.
Tuesday, February 1, 2011
It is almost for me to forget my blog title. there has been a while din come back to this small space
so is it mean i got less complains? less egoism views? more simple life? ya i like the latter.
I'm not busy, busy word for people who serious in their official stuff.
im busy on playing games.
It depleting my soul.. good thing for some rivals. XD
recently im so forgetful that i need to put all the thought in a piece of paper and keep it.
good thing is, i learn 2 new words - organised, and Alzheimer
returning to the track where i should belong.
seriously, I'm tired, tired of faces, words take-care and what so ever thing.
no longer listen and oppose for me, but listen and say "watever..."
listen to the christmas song gave by joanne last last year.
the chord bring my heart back to the small house where i meet a feel generous sister and brothers.
seriously, i miss them so much.
it have been a while for me not go in to that house and hear the sharing.
and ya. Happy Chinese New Year that care me, feel me or see me. XD
life is great. Waiting for new email from God that propose me to even greater place.
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