pre-exam periods

exam is around the corner; so stress and tired.
my way of preparing is so ambiguous; hopefully this new style of preparation will help in my final.
not feeling well on this morning; and after finish a chapter of IPC, i go read the bible.

when i flipping it, the appendix part took my sight. woa! now only i know this bible got teach about bible study. so flip to the title "stress".

here is what i got for today.

John 14:1 "do not let your hearts be troubled, trust in God; trust also in me"

amen.

farmer

i got a dream but seems never can be true.

i shout to get A, sky fall down an A?
i plant an A, but it turn grow into other species.

haha! A dream cannot be true. but yet, i'm not giving up on it.
because i know how many time i shout to get A, the sky wont fall down an A.

im not planting a good seed of A, but i'm skilling myself how to plant an A.

everything seems handle by destiny, by god, so have a peaceful heart and try the best practicing in A way.

self-control

time, time, time... i need more time to balance myself.
telling myself, mustn't have the heart of competing or comparing. if want to compare, compare to yourself; if want to compete, compete with your own behavior or characters.

aspiration must not exist.
aspiration will drive me out of the trail.

i wish all subject can up to my standard; it would fine for me.

A and A- is not my level.

anything extra, is a gift from lord.

TEACC, the main problem of this semester

I got myself A with 81% for the lab test part. I'm happy with it. not yesterday test only got 68. =..= disappointed.

but still i cant get an A or A- for the whole lab test, why? because my report suck. HAHAHA! probably can get a B+ lar.. =..= another B+

all my courseworks this semester are good good.. average all got 75% and above.
except transition metal =..= quiz... stupid, just get half out of 10.

the main obstacle now will be transition metal...
the past years are hard..

dono how to die later.

anyway, thx lord for the blessing.

haih..... sit too much d

very disappointed on today playing...
can't run, can't head, can't carry, can't defend, can't attack..
when leave my shoes behind, i feel my leg pain, when i put on my shoes, i cant stop well and cant shoot...


wat on earth am i on the pitch..

football is my favorite, but still it put me down...

I've changed, but it seems too late

Yesterday talking to a friend and disclosed some of my old time story. It is true that I at that time am so rotten. XD

Getting into a controlled school is kind of proud thing and I treat too pride enough and causing me fall from the desk.
I abandoned the effort and categories myself as part of brilliant community. I was totally idiot to think so.

Is very wrong to me when join again the group and I realized, they are already few miles further than me.


I feel insulted

I’ve isolated, no one rather pay their attention to me because I’m not worth at the class.

And make my first step. After all, I joined Utar and recent year, I’ve been better than last time.

But still,

Whose acknowledge me...?

under the mist of utar, there are disappointments

it is already a group that don have the sense of unity and now become worse just because second party.

IS like throwing a rotten meat to a bunch of hungry dogs... and they fight each other because of the rotten meat.

what had pissed me off is, why should everyone acting like want to kill the 5 person even that is not hatred in their own heart, just because of don want boycott by the majority or try to shows some mutual intention.

that is what really call coward.
Sick of that...

second thing is, just closed the comment system. that is just a useless things used to shows Utar really got intention to improve. empty cans nice in looking.

=..= disappointed by my primacy perception, because i thought all strong in their heart . disappointed because they are the same... very common chinese.. perhap, singapore's chinese.

A dream across the sea

being a citizen or a student living at oversea is always a dream to me.
this dream don seem clear enough because is too far for me.
But still, i wish i'm not restricted here in malaysia only.
the living pressure is increasing here yet the opportunity and the pay is still the same.

i'm looking forward for going to oversea, widen my mind.
hope i'm qualified for this small dream.

YES! I MAKE MYSELF HOME!

there is pouring rain, heavily or very heavy rain.
i decide not to stay at campus with a tired body.
so i decide to confront the rain!
and i got stuck at middle of the road from utar to east lake.
i was not notice that the water dept is so deep or rather i din notice the roadside is flood.

i decide not to slow down other people by driving only 40kmj on the center of the road, instead i ride to the side.
my bike ceased because of water and i have to move the bike to the center of the road and start again.

after another quarter portion of road. the motor is dead.
and i have to move it home.

after all i reach home safely.

lucky me.

Ever forturnate to meet someone

today i have come closer to you.
I feel fortunate to meet u and accept you as the one.
and you have taught me life shouldn't contained too much of desire or the desire is too extreme.
you teach me how to patient and seek of your presence.

thk you for the blessing and answering my prayer.

i'm still living.
thk you lord.

And i will leave up all my rest of life depending where u want me to go.

In poor land

seriously need money now. Got problem with daily expenses.
Yet still hoping can buy a pair of shoes and glove.

may God bless me and provide me food...

today is a good day

talking about today, my day of course, it is a very good day with no special mood and had my test done with "cheating". oops, sorry, is legally cheating in test. It is a open book test and a very first time having test in this way.. i mean continue the test after 3 hours. Yes, we all can check and get the answer den continue in answering the question 3 hours later. pretty cool ya.. And one of my fren say wasting my time to study so much; another one answer him, the lecturer give u a present, just accept it.
hahaha! i laughing over there.

eventually i don quite need external sources for the first session, or i din use any book at all and i've finish all the question. well, think it should be lucky. lucky enough that i know all the answer. of course i double checked, still got few minor careless thingy.. can't help, thing that cannot avoid.

well, i feel quite confident on this course after today test. but still can't must be careful enough on it.

thx dr.sim and ya, thanks lord father Jesus for answered my prayer.

imagine what can i do

if let say like football and other sport things is forbidden. would it be a normal life by just starring the computer screen every day and night with tons of work load and nothing else can do.

that is life but only proved by living and it is suck.

I'm not destined life like this.

quote

achievement is related to actions.
men and women found that they are success because they keep moving
they made the mistake but they never give up

half-blood christian

this coming Sunday is the Easter day, where lot of believer become part of fellowship and yet i still a half-blood christian.

thinking of commitment to being a christian, commitment to lord; still feeling that i'm not ready for it.

sigh..

still learning from the basics about how to involve in christian living.

after all, the day of become pure blood christian will be become sooner than i thought.

hoping my parent allow it.

perfect

When a thing or human being introduced to the world, nothing and no one is perfect.
there is how coordination of different things and different people come from.

sigh... I'm still thinking of my midterm test although is not bloody look but still i mind it.

it maybe a perception that too normal to being good and can't accept any out of standard results, perhaps negatively.

telling myself that I'm not perfect and it is still in my standard, or maybe little drop from the usual standard.

time to be more discipline.