it seem not going to make it this semester....
try the best.
god bless.

human are really complicated or maybe I'm come from a simple family.
I truly believe that sincere and trust is only can happen between man and god for now.
Life is difficult to carry on now a day.
every morning wake up still i able to glad that I able to wake up.

I'm still find the reason, why people words are so harsh to my ear. Their joke doesn't seem like a joke to me, maybe I from a village. haha. concept different.

I'm perfectionist, before. Because things doesn't go what i scale for. say me lame please.

emo-ing.
I believe in my way because i know my scale is correct now
but lord... strengthen and enforce me to full filled every single step in my life.

I mind my words when i talk to someone.
I mind my attitude when I do on something.
but please protect me and making me deaf against wicked words
please blind me from seeing two face people...

I will stay still even standing alone.

a very disappointed day of mine.. feel bad and sad.

first of my life

interesting day of mine for the first ever visit from foreigner but sadly they are spreading "false christian belief"

but anyway, i feel weird on the middle of the reading(luckily me myself got read bible daily).

Is is somehow shows my faith to lord father?
hmm... anyway, thanks for protected me from evils...
i feel afraid, but also feel fortunate enough to know my god and still until now, holding it tight. hehee..

thank you lord..

Whenever time that I saw peoples with their elders picture such as grandparents, I will regret I never i behave as a proper grandson to fealty my elders while I got any chance.

well, sorry, grandmum...

from your idiot grandson

is time to put some effort on running and forget about football
stamina is at the bottom line..
hell like

christian to me

i believe christian won't take physical result as a guide of life and i also believe christian won't use physical outcome to judge a person good or bad.

come from heart even that guys don't smile always.

winter

i'm always thinking of going to winter country a pure white scenery.
where should i go for the graduate vacation? Go for cheaper place? or celebrate a Christmas at real winter season.

my little wish. hopefully i got the opportunity.

5 believes of mine

phew... finished most of the stuffs but still have a lot more and coming more.
the never end work just like in a industry the luckier part is the politics here is less severe than outside one. But yet, some gossip is annoying me. without further sparks the thing, I'm swallow all the things into my stomach. After all, it lets me know who is the one wearing mask. Well.. i hand it to lord.

the thing i believe:
1) everything is written. fate is written and is managed by lord. pray more if u want to rewrite the fate.
you are fate to fail on something, bear in mind that try to understand what lord want from you. "you are not ready?", "that is other solutions?" etc.

2) i believe goal isn't a good director to me. I believe on direction but not goal. it is not working on me when i trying to set a good goal because usually efforts paid is much lesser to achieve it. So i turn myself to "try me best-full pump".

3) i believe comparing is not good because turning more aggressive isn't help at all because patient always give the best part. or else jealous will haunting me all the way.

4) i believe good and bad isn't come with the results itself but the heart of the works or that person. If u are good in everything, but you are stingy, jealous and kia su(takut kalah)... well, it is not for me to respect you, haha.

5) i believe I wont distinction in every work but efforts will make it better. In equations' world, something would have to give out if u want to gain something. Just like "time" lost when you want get "good result".

great thing

Is time for me to be more patient.. yes, i had more patient now. Is already week 3, have been waited for 3 weeks, a little bit longer won't cause anything changed much.
it is good steps for me too because in this case i will do full pump to my study already..
this coming midterm. study hard.

lost my way

ya right. im always the wrong guys..
you know why? because i keep scolding by my gf.
i keep her cloth for her. She say why u don keep to my room.
i promise her one week for football rest, and i go for football today. She was unhappy.
im tried to please her always, but this seem not long lasting.. is tired, im tired..

dear lord.. teach me wat to do..

7 sins

Is New changed of my blog. I feel it is nice.
well yesterday was totally out of my mind. I'm easy to get mad if the thing is not under the control..

midterm is coming, a little worried... can't understand all
I shall focus and try my best...
Dear lord. sorry for doing mistakes again.. hope u forgive me.

7 sins: wrath, sloth, lust, gluttony, greed, pride and envy.

about FYP

i'm in totally angry mode now. What stupid thing does this campus have, the lecturer is so ambiguous and gone through without knowing availability of chemicals and machine.
I've wasted my time to research so much and money as well. Now telling that changed to palladium nanoparticles? Alright.

Yes say yes. No say no. I wont bother it if u say NO! please don waste my time.
reliable person? i also finding.

Today

today i will write a rather brief blog...
1) after a semester her teaching still solid without change.
2) is a lot of thing tat is rather too brief for me to get it in depth.
3) input must be high so output will relatively up to standard.
4) reading from slide is not help me at all.
5) lots of info on note i wish to have more elaboration.

well of course i won't comment on it on the UTAR commentary system. It is rather pointless system.

sigh, good thing is, I know I have to put more time on her subject now.

Omnia 2

is a very happy day of mine i should say, because my parent ordered me a smartphone, samsung omnia II same as pei wen using now..
im very happy with it but generally feel bad because my parent spend another big amount of money to me.. well it cost them nearly 2K for that phone.. sigh.. sorry mom.

well i not sure how well on this omnia II but what i heard is not bad.. my frens called me don buy symbians phone which i agree that symbian phone is lagger phone.
yeah, why? because my previos phone is also an symbian OS phone and is lag like hell..

anyway, it is a revolution of mine by trying phone other than nokia for the first time.
hope i will like the performance of my new pet gadget.

and bye, nokia 3250..
hopefully that guy will fix u up..

thank you

That is a lot of thing wish to write today.

First, thank lord that because of you, I was able to think wisely, kept me away of evil thought and also I breathing because you have gave it to me.

Thank lord that giving opportunity to expose to your words, even that is very busy in my life, a lot of unpleasant things or troublesome things happen to me, my mind will still flashed that I need to read the bible today. Father lord please forgive me for the mistake I’ve done, e.g. the social mistake.
Lord father, I pray that you will still hold me tight with you and bless me for my academic performance.

Here come the blog post,
That is a lot of thing happen and all my works still in the trail, I haven’t lost yet…

Struggling with the discipline action, following tightly to last semester study idea. Yet my table wasn’t out yet, why? I have to trail for first week before the actual one come out.

I’m the person who like to motivate people but that is not because of feeling of superiority, I’m just a normal person. Ya, is dean, but is last semester stuff, everything will start all over again now, who know you will better than me.

I’ve learn not attacking people with words, although sometime my patient is off. But still im trying hard to doing good, doing righteously according to HIS.

I sticked a stuff at my room last semester, printed words, “look to the high sky, ya, HE is the one leading me more desired to be a better man.”
Lol.. I still din tear off yet. Keeping it, as good as possible.

Our society need to understand more about god’s love… I’ve changed, evolved (not according to the darwin’s theory) in my mind…

Ya, is time to be more mature.

Amen.