the thing i said

probably the first word i said of life is calling my parent when i was one year old. probably.

when i was 5,
i said:
"dad i want follow u go work."
"the kindergarten wasn't a fun place. I hate the kids over there"
"zzz.. alright mom, i awake now... (prepare to go kindergarten)"

when i was 7
"wou, lets play "one leg""
"run! the teacher came!"
"I hate u! i will call my brother to write down your name!" (my bro was 5 years older than me and he is the patrol.)

when i was 10
"you are great! you enter the first class" "i was not lucky enough"
one of my friend said.

when i was 12
"nevermind the other school is not bad either" planning on the going which secondary school other than CLHS.

"wa!" i jumped. "holy crap, u get 5A out of 7!" my fren said.

"i got myself 1st at the science quiz!" i said, my mother say, " =..= are u sure? probably your teacher announce wrongly. hahaha!"

"SEE! how clever your son is!" i told my father while holding a gold trophy in science of standard six. first-ever gold in my life.

"halo... is it ng beng guan family here? ya, your son qualified in CLHS, you need come and sign the document." my parents delighted.

thing doesn't go well in CLHS, probably is was too competitive to me.

when i was 13

"i've nearly fail my maths." said sadly

"i've failed some subjects. Hey monitor! teach me how to study. (he is the great one in my class at that time.)

"wahaha, you also fail?? " i said without worry.

when i was 14

"wo! yu gi oh is great! now u see, u can attack by this than trap against this."

"hey mom! don so annoying!"

"i probably done a lots of sins before i born in this family!" (non-christian at the moment)

thing happened the same until i was 18.

"well i think i can go form six. with this results. probably can..." (i have no idea where to go)

when i was 19

"everyone is so great..." i've arrange into the all elite classmate. i see the different, and the different is so great.

"is too late." i told myself when i get the first result of form 6.

when i was upper 6
"Ms Ooi, how does the chemical formed this way" i keep asking in the class.
"wo. i first time win u in chemistry." i told my friend. yet all other subject was failed.

when i was waiting for the local university reply.
"probably can go to local uni."
"oh my... i fail to achieve any one of it."

when i first come to UTAR.
"is my fault to make myself here." i cried.
"i going to do better as my friends are growing as well in local uni."

when i was 2nd year.
"wa! dean list!" i shout. "congrat!" shian hoi said.

Now i said.

"my life was drama-like. going up the hills, passed down of my life at young time and rising up slowly again... yet, i appreciate what i got. but still i regret that i wasn't able to be part of the elite.
Utar maybe a better surviving place for me.
maybe GOD make me here because he understand me."

you remember what you have said?