I've gone greed

The desire to become an impressive football player doesn't go fade after all these years. In fact the desire is there but the training and preparation wasn't there. Sadly to my forgetful mind, i have been reminded i was prayed for a good competition. He have answer my prayer, he give me chance, but I wasn't prepare. They chance have arrive and i have to sadly give this away. I wasn't an impressive player, I didn't pickup by the other. It is disappointing but it is all my own. 

A gentle reminder to myself, when you did not feel pain, you are not giving your best, and you wont expect a miracle to happen. It was too early for you to comment on luck.

Way Back From Japan

Hello there, it is been a while not updating the blog isn't it. I just way back from Japan last week.

Yup, it was my first trip to oversea and I appreciate it so so much. It is a training trip to Wakayama Japan and known as legendary origin of modern Japanese knowledge and culture. It was a religous town than any large urbanization of Japan. Wakayama is located at south of Osaka.

The legend say XU FU from QIN Dynasty arrive at the place of wakayama and start living and teaching at the place. He bring in new way of farming and medicine from China to ancient Japan. There are still temple at Kumono river that people are workshipping him and known his as God of Farm and Medicine.

I've been staying Japan for five days which I've spent four days at Minabe, Tanabe. Interestingly, the hotel i stay was near to the ancient pigrim route by ancient Japanese. Of course, the fourth day morning I took the chance wake up 4 something which already sunrised at Japan and walk on the pilgrim route too. It was cold and about 20C and it was a bit creepy to walk alone. I visited 3 Shrine but dare not walk into the shrine.

i was amazed by the Japanese culture and working attitude and felt sorry to see what we have in our country. It was sad and it is completely different world of people when I was in the circle. I still finding why they are so committed to what they doing.

trying to think what i really like

i was trying to think clearly what make most happy up to now. i tried to think after i got rich then how, after i got the fame then how. All of this doest really matter to me if imagined i already got all these. Now this seems lonely striving for these.

I think the most happy moment is coupling the right pace during football and impress by my own photography product.

When think about football, my memory still floating at the moment i scored a very important goal during my inter form competition during form six. The first ever goal at that match and we nearly win the game. 3-2 and we fail to kick in final. it feel like happening yesterday.

没有进决赛真是遗憾

prayer

It was ever once that you heard someone say this, "it doest seem logic for praying this and it does not happen in that way." However, God's blessing to you also does not seem any logic behind. it just happen that way and it is a miracle.

I read an article which teach us how to pray and practice to pray. Up to now, it seem i got all my prayer answered by time. It was too instant we lost our faith and conclude things while God is giving the answer.

I also heard a story in real that dying person last wish to ask for recover. since ever he pray, he getting well from sickness. i meet him alive and that is miracle.

let us pray and specifically. i love u god

Walking on the water

We or precisely, i believe that we can do wonders when we just step out from the books and we imagines ourself as hero and savior of certain industry as we splashing our knowledge on papers and on practical as well. But reality doesn't go that way, and we got blow. We got blow and blows and we finally fed up and disappointed that either we are not hero or we tend to accusing the other party on lack of creativity, do not think out of the box, this and that.

Somehow, God says we must have faith. You choose but without faith. You are sinking. You cried, god save me. Of course, almighty hand pull you from further lost.

You might losing your faith on your career, but never to lord. Amen.

Take charge

The rule of thumb always in play, there are always things happen out of our control, focus on what we capable to provide is good enough. Just recently I've read up a second time of the 7th habits by late writer stephen covey. I'm in touch with the new depth of the knowledge as mental stage of us are always changing. Just something to share here, in his writing, he lectures us of in our surrounding environment, there are areas of concern and influence. Area of concern which daily life matters, challenge and doubts that we are concerning of and yet we don't have absolute power on determining it. Area of influence which means the matters that we can provide changes or we empower the thing. Basically, he told us to take charge of our life. Life in control is a very difficult "consequences" for us because our life is not single cast but we coiled up so deeply with others. Every action every move does not translate into 100% yield of the result. However, I agree on what he stand for, it always our choice on trying to achieve something and yet the consequences is random in certain area. Pro-activity and magnitudes of desire driven the end result. We could be slammed and told of unrealistic but bear in mind that realistic is mean to be achieved. The only thing differ is time taken to achieve something. "Focus on what you can do now, You can do greater next."

Training

I begins of my first day training. Done some reps on shoulder, hands and leg muscle. It was tough on doing abs training. Oh man.. I hope i wont break my back....

So normally people will take picture for begin and after picture. Haha

I hope there is some changes after one month