UNTOUCHED (The Veronicas) & GONE (Korea's Dynamic Duo) - Piano Cello Duet

Self that i know

when starting to run, my angle feel pain and I was slow down and stand there for a while but i still continue to run.
After the pain is off, I still can't get it and I realized that is nothing more and I'm still the ordinary person.

throughout these years, one important message I have realized was I'm not a person who born with special talent and given a hidden potential in certain area. No, I'm not one of them.

throughout these years, I fight for what I got and I build from nothing but zero.
It happen to my study as well, I required long period of time to adapt myself to that particular area. Is a relatively long lag time. yeah, that is me.
I have no talent on anything, even i tried to involved in it for a long time and it always stop at certain degree of standard, e.g. at 60-70% and it stop. It hardly for me to perform good and it always depends on luck.

For sure I'll wonder, how much I wish to be "that" particular person. I'm not like few of my secondary school friend that their "brain nerve system" is connected very very well. They can take something new very fast and i would never like my best friend can read a book seven times before an exam. No, I'm not one of them.

sometime it make me feel like, who am i and what the world need me for. But from Christian view, I'm unique in what i'm.

I'm a creation, my life and right to live here is a gift. Yet why i'm not satisfying with what I'm.

I got a good gf, meaning she very very good to me.
The most important objectives or wish to me is, I dont hope to be a burden for anyone in my life.
I hope I got that ability for people lying on me safely.

a simple wish, and dear lord, sorry for being unsatisfying for what I'm
for me, I will accept what I'm.

life is gift

Time to emo again.
I heard something and the heart of comparing is pop out again.
argh. shouldn't compare actually.
I hate and i avoid hearing something great from other, "He is rich" "he score 4A" "he is talented".
These stuffs making me feel pressure and make me shout out, I will better than them.
But when the time I want to shout out, i being silenced because I can't. Yes, I can't be better than anyone when I desired to. That is a lot of ambiguity out there that i wouldn't know whether I can or cannot.
Sigh
God make us specific and what we are.
Just like I'm unique in knowing all thing in average. With the concept of "best or nothing" from Benz, you can say I'm nothing. XD
Anyway, talents and outcome is gift from lord.
Maybe I'm better than the one who take 30 or more years to success by taking 29 years time.
well... is still success anyway.
anyway, thx lord for everything he had gave... and fortunate enough I'm not born as a female at Afghanistan.

A love of a mother

this blog post was inspired by observing my 7 cute little cuties this morning.
when i try to touch the little one, the mother of these seven fellow will come quickly as it want to see whether got any danger or not? or try to protect them because I'm dangerous... =..=

I saw a young one walking alone away from the group, den the mother go and bite him (helping this young little one clean up it body). I feel amazed and i feel the love.

mother's love is wonderful.. And while i looking on them, I said: "god, look at your creation. Is wonderful.. and the mother's love, i know it is not happen by chance but with your own hand, u make this.
I know You are watching us, just like me watching them now."

sigh.. suddenly miss my family. quite a period of time not home.

I'm a damn weird guy! but i like it~~

I'm a weird guy, something pop up from my mind which i'm totally agree.
I'm weird in friendship and I'm weird in study as well.
Nah.. Not i don't like to talk much, but it is hardly to find myself talk to each another well by just two of us. I will be more humorous mostly in group of peoples.

I so weird that I don talk much to an old friend mainly because I'm trying to hide the distance between the niche changes. of course, saying hi but saying not more than that to a good friend sound so weird and lack of friendliness. I try to avoid this.

What i do now a day, i don talk much..
a principle of mine being other's friend is, i don back-stab, i don talk nice thing, i don pretend "brothers" to each another.

But whenever u ask, i will help.
So is it sound not sincere? sincerity doesn't need to show out just like we believe in god. XD

Crying me

dear lord Jesus, how long can i stand it for....

less update the blog now cause recently was busy like an ant.. argh... lots and lots of tons and tons of works. I want to shout "give me more time".
argh.. i got that heart i got that motivation. but i don have enough time.
So, i come out with new plan. Hope it will make more time.
god please bless me.