It is almost for me to forget my blog title. there has been a while din come back to this small space

so is it mean i got less complains? less egoism views? more simple life? ya i like the latter.

I'm not busy, busy word for people who serious in their official stuff.
im busy on playing games.

It depleting my soul.. good thing for some rivals. XD

recently im so forgetful that i need to put all the thought in a piece of paper and keep it.

good thing is, i learn 2 new words - organised, and Alzheimer

returning to the track where i should belong.

seriously, I'm tired, tired of faces, words take-care and what so ever thing.
no longer listen and oppose for me, but listen and say "watever..."

listen to the christmas song gave by joanne last last year.

the chord bring my heart back to the small house where i meet a feel generous sister and brothers.

seriously, i miss them so much.

it have been a while for me not go in to that house and hear the sharing.

and ya. Happy Chinese New Year that care me, feel me or see me. XD

life is great. Waiting for new email from God that propose me to even greater place.

3rd times of my bible study

Felt happy with the newly made friends. of course, learned a lots of thing today.
Something I discovered today, when doing god's job or in front of god, we are willing to sacrifice that much. yeah. great brother(senior) of mine.

He is nice person with know bible in depth. although he is not very wealthy or what, still he wealthy in god's faith and knowledge.
Of course i respect him so much and i pray he can a step more higher in his life and keep up his work of god.

a grateful night

Feel sad and insecure
Not giving me any free time.

argh.. now doing my very first sketching of my thesis.
Doing introduction part now.. and now come those trouble.

Hambee humble

“God opposes the proud, but gives grace to the humble [James 4:6]”
the verse i wish to hold the most.
god of high sky, his decision shall not be opposed.
for him, we are as precious as son of him and everything happen in our life, i believe, is a sign of what he try to tell, whether we are in wrong way or in right path.

Through this, I'm too overreacted to anything oppose to humble.. very much.
Is it a good thing?

to Joanne, I love you. Don't give up my dear.
Life won't be so success all the time, few year later, who know u will be a better person than anyone here.

UNTOUCHED (The Veronicas) & GONE (Korea's Dynamic Duo) - Piano Cello Duet

Self that i know

when starting to run, my angle feel pain and I was slow down and stand there for a while but i still continue to run.
After the pain is off, I still can't get it and I realized that is nothing more and I'm still the ordinary person.

throughout these years, one important message I have realized was I'm not a person who born with special talent and given a hidden potential in certain area. No, I'm not one of them.

throughout these years, I fight for what I got and I build from nothing but zero.
It happen to my study as well, I required long period of time to adapt myself to that particular area. Is a relatively long lag time. yeah, that is me.
I have no talent on anything, even i tried to involved in it for a long time and it always stop at certain degree of standard, e.g. at 60-70% and it stop. It hardly for me to perform good and it always depends on luck.

For sure I'll wonder, how much I wish to be "that" particular person. I'm not like few of my secondary school friend that their "brain nerve system" is connected very very well. They can take something new very fast and i would never like my best friend can read a book seven times before an exam. No, I'm not one of them.

sometime it make me feel like, who am i and what the world need me for. But from Christian view, I'm unique in what i'm.

I'm a creation, my life and right to live here is a gift. Yet why i'm not satisfying with what I'm.

I got a good gf, meaning she very very good to me.
The most important objectives or wish to me is, I dont hope to be a burden for anyone in my life.
I hope I got that ability for people lying on me safely.

a simple wish, and dear lord, sorry for being unsatisfying for what I'm
for me, I will accept what I'm.